Today Is Never An Another Day

"Is tomorrow will be like yesterday?"

It's been around 2 months since I last posted. How ironic is it that not posting while it is vacation. I never saw vacation either. It was not fun for me at all. I did not get what I want. Instead, it was hell. There were only too many problems to handle with and, even if I admit it or not, I lost. Yeah, it is frustrating indeed. But what can I do? It is how my life drifted and I never had the control over the accelerator nor the steering wheel.

Those times, I never thought of being wrong, neither being right. I just wanted to be happy. But everything turned out against it. I'm just wanted to be happy but there are really persons who distorted my wishes and made me snap out of it. I tried to fight for it. I instantly lost, and, became the bad guy. It really is not fun.

My second year in high school ended. And I'm already in my third year. I really think it is just the same. Ironically, it really has a different environment since majority of the persons in the same box as I am, is a stranger to me. Including our mentors, including our adviser, including myself. I found myself in a different dimension as compared from before. Subjects is not as easy nor is not hard as it seems ( I guess ). Classmates are not hard to be with ( I'm not sure about the others ). Personal life is not being taken to the next level, since I am facing new combinations and patterns of attitudes and lookout through life.

Back during the 2 months of my absence. It almost changed everything in me. Including my life. I feel like I can't stand for myself. I am helpless with myself. I know there are some people trying to help me. But I guess, I really can not help myself even by using their help. They tried every way to help me. I don't know how to respond. What I want them to accept in me is to be happy where I am happy. I can't take it anymore. The more I get happy, the more they get mad at me. I fought for my happiness. I lost. I defended myself. I still lost. I pushed them to accept me. I lost, lost, lost, and lost. I can't help it anymore. Damn.

Right now, I am listening to Sponge Cola's A Tear from their self-titled album, Sponge Cola ( but also available in their Extended Play ). It somehow summarizes what am I feeling. Even if Neon is my life's song, I still like this very much. It talks about the presence of a certain person and suddenly lost, trying to be happy, looking for someone, and the greatest part, being ignored even in the time that the person needs an attention to anyone especially from the most important ones. It sounds pessimist, but as pessimist that it seems. The person is just asking for an attention that no one could give.

For this blog, as you can see, I tried a new way of posting my works. I'm already sucked with the old way. I need to change and be matured enough for the outlook of myself. I can't stick forever to those childish things forever. I must go and find another way for living. A way to fill my stomach and my pocket reasonably. I know I sound funny and immatured, but I just want to express my thoughts. I apologize if someone is getting me on their nerves and I want to thank everyone who helped me, especially Henrianne ( my girlfriend ) who keeps me optimistic and helping me to be what I wanted.

'Till next time. Thanks. For anything you want tosay, just leave a comment. Even though the bill is not passed yet, I accept and respect the right to reply bill already.

"Alam kong dati ka nang masaya, pero ang problema'y ako, diba?"

-- Itchyworms ( Yokonakitangmakita )

--marc22o8eliyha

Walang Kwentang Mga Bagay

"Bakit ba maraming basura sa mundo?"

Magtatagalog ako ngayon
Hindi ko kaya mag-English

Bakit ba naimbento ang mga bagay?
Necessity?
Kahit may nasisira itong ibang bagay?
Kahit maraming hindi sang-ayon dito?
Hindi ba naiintindihan ng gumawa ng bagay n 'yon na marami siyang sinirang buhay?

Alam ba niya kung ano ang epekto nito sa kapaligiran?
Hindi lang sa kalikasan kundi sa mga tao mismo?
Alam ba niya na maraming nasisira ang buhay dahil dito?
Bakit hindi niya magawang makita ang mga nangyayare?
Bulag ba siya?
Wala talagang pakealam?
Galit sa mundo?
Galit sa tao kaya gumaganti sa ibang hindi niya kilala?
Ano?
Ganon na ba siya kasama
Na pati bata sirain niya ang buhay?

Ano ba kalokohan niya?
Bakit ba niya inimbento iyon?
Naiintindihan ba niya ang mga nararamdaman ng mga taong nagmamalasakit?
Malamang sa hindi
Kung oo
Edi matagal na niya tinigil ang kasamaan niya
Kaso sadyang wala siyang kwentang tao
Ginamit parin niya iyon para lang sa sariling interest
Ang pera
Bakit ba?
Madadala mo ba pera mo sa langit o impyerno?
Magbabayad ka ba kay San Pedro para palusutin ka?
Magbibigay ka kay Satanas para iakyat kang langit?
Magpapagawa ka ng casino sa kabilang buhay?
Magtitinda ng ginawa niyang bagay na sumira sa milyon-milyong buhay na inosente?
O sadyang gusto niya lamang na maghari sa lahat?

Gumising ang mga naloloko
Ano ba problema niyo
Lahat tayo biktima
Ako
Ikaw
Sila
Kami
Kayo
Tayo
TAYO
LAHAT TAYO
SIRA ANG BUHAY DAHIL SA ISANG WALANG KWENTANG BAGAY
Papayag ka bang sumaya ng todo ngayon
At durugin ang kaluluwa mo bukas?
MAG-ISIP KA
BAGO KA TAWAGING
TANGA

"Ano ba talaga mas-gusto mo? Ang beer na 'to o ang pag-ibig ko?"

---- Itchyworms ( Beer )

--marc2208eliyha

The Dust

"All of your efforts are either diminished, distorted, or disregarded."

It is been so hard to be with everybody
Especially when all the thing you do
Is a mistake in their eyes
Pouring too much effort is not enough at all
The worst of it
The more effort you put on
And was ignored in moments
Your emotion will collapse in an instant
And it can bring you permanent damages
And these damages are harder to break

I can never seem to understand why there are people always have or like to hurt others
Others back stab
While others hit it head by head
It is a little bit frustrating when one of the worthiest people turn their back against you
Especially when you do not see any reason for it
When somebody hits you
Never turn again unguarded
Fight for your goal
How ever lost your ship is
You'll still be able to see the shore you are searching for
And the worst part of it
When it is your turn to return the favor to them
They will be more enraged to you
Making your life an instant hell

A bad or a good person
Is somebody a bad or a good one?
Can you tell who are the bad and good ones?
Can you tell me if you are a bad or a good one?
Majority will answer good o course
But I'm expecting to see a person answer bad
Why?
Yeah. why?
Just tell me why?
Because you returned your parents' change when they asked you to buy some eggs at the store?
Because you "respect" everyone?
Because you study too well?
Because you answered you teacher immorally?
Because you used your sister's hairspray without permission?
Because you spanked your baby bro?
Because you paid the right amount, or more?
Or is it because you just liked it?
Until now
I can never say why everyone of us
Admitted or not
Judges others so drastically
I can never say that I'm not judging people
I also do it
But the main point is
Who we are to judge others?
Are a the corrupt leader to say that we are good?
Are we a good player of basketball to say such pike-like words that stabs others?

"Time won't flow."

---- The Speaks ( High )

--marc2208eliyha

Stained Glass

"Colours never shows the true meaning."

I've been pretty bored today
Not just today but the whole time around
I never asked to cross boundaries with this life
Even though I though I did
I still did not

We had our exams this past week
And it was a hell-damned hard
It almost never let me to turn the wheel and a full straight ahead
But I insisted to myself to do what I like
So I've done what i wished for
I just treat my afternoon as my free time
And my evening as my last minute to complete my stuffs
From my childhood
I always wonder
Why do we have to go to an Primary Education Stage?
Secondary?
And then College where we can really push ourselves to what we like
And after getting a job
You'll like searching for a snow here in the Philippines when getting a job
I always think about this routine
Why does everybody makes life of everybody so miserable and not make it more simple?
Having a difficult life is a very great continually

Some of the questions really made my mouth shut and let me tell to myself
That I'm still not enough to have great mind
And the most frustrating part
Is when you pushed yourself to the limit 'till you really gave up since there's no more hope
That's the time when you'll see yourself hit the floor better
Disappointment of one matter can really drop you for the next one
Since most of the difficult subjects came first
And those were the ones that destroyed me
The next cuisines is not appreciated anymore due to the destroyed appetite
It was really brain-twisting that even my pens gave up
One was lost and suddenly found the day after the last exam
And the other one almost ran out of ink
I pity such items
Innocently suffering 'cause of the unknown reason to them
Not just the pens
Include also the papers
They were attacked by the pens by shading some part of them

Studying was quite tiring
And makes me lazy
You'll have to read what happen what you had understand
Over and over all the time
It'll make you dizzy after all
And not to absorb anything since you don't feel good while reading
The implications very complicated though
It feels like your running for the goal even if you must lose the game

Socialization
This word doesn't sound too much to me
I have very few friends
Some of the others have left me
While I left others but I also don't why
It is hard to be alone
Too difficult to be a loner one
Even though I have my girl
Friends are still different
I envy my classmates that go to the mall together
While for me
I just can't go to the mall that easy
I still have to let my parents know every details of it
And sometimes I just decline those
'Cause I'm afraid to be frustrated if my parents disagree
It is more depressing to me
Especially when I'm the only one who is not joining them
I wanted to go anywhere at anytime
It feels really great
But what can I do?
I'm just a student
A puppet of the higher ups

"Between the lines we speak that rise at me, will there ever be a chance?"

---- Sponge Cola ( 98603 )

--marc2208eliyha

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When Cigarette's Ash Drops To Your Shoulder

"What would you do if everybody's hero betrayed you?"

One day
I realized one thing
That I hate my hero
I feel like I am the only one in this world
Who hates his hero
I've never heard someone's scream that pointed out that way

Running against myself
Unable to achieve bliss anymore
So down
So frustrated
So lonely
So loner
So mad
So guilt
I felt like
I am feeling every negative emotions in this world
I dunno what to do for every breath I take
Because of my problems
I hurt the only one who lifted me up
I was so angry to myself
What if I lose that someone?
Can I still breath by myself in this surrounding?
Will someone care for me?
Should someone love me?
Would someone lift me back to where I was when she lifted me?
I never think that there will be someone
Equal or greater to how she raised me
She taught how to blow things up
To realize what the word LIFE means
And now I broke her again
I was so fixated to move even a muscle due to that
Everybody left me aside from her
But still
I felt like I never treasured her because of what I've done
I HATE MYSELF
This is all my fault
I don't know what is running to her mind at the present
Is she mad at me?
I can't blame her
I shattered the mirror we are trying to fix
I ended up the efforts we've done to nowhere

I can never say what will happen next to my days
Sometime I wish to let it end
But I guess I can't
The only one who supported me needs me now
I can just leave her at that climax of the hours
Though my depression seems to destroy my brain
I know that I must overcome it
Since she is the reason why I live
Why I breath
Why I smile
Why I care so much
Why I love
I am so confused now
I don't know what is the right thing to do
I feel like
There's no thing for me to do
That is RIGHT

"I can't go on without you."

---- Secondhand Serenade ( Vulnerable )

--marc22o8eliyha

The Number Three

"Doesn't mean you're addicted to it, you can not live without it. Unless you need it."

It's been a while since I last posted a story-telling like entry
There's so much things that happened
It has been a very challenging role for me to be stable
Even though I failed to do my role properly
I'm still happy that it was not thoroughly abused
Although we were damaged
We still hold on

Hindrances are not hindrance at all
They are just making lives more difficult
Yet exciting
They were never there due to preventing such things
But they are present since they are included in proving trust to other people
Yeah I forgot about it
Is trusting someone very difficult for you?
Please agree with me
I don't want to be alone for the answer in this question
When you are starting to trusting a friend
A test will suddenly appear in front of you
With that
You can see if you should trust your friend will all your might
If not
Then not
There are also times that even if you are trusting him/her
That time
He/she will let go of you
And let you fall from the chair you are sitting on
Personally
People letting me down removes my trust to them
More often if they let me go more than once
Its so hard to bring the trust to them
That's why I lose friends more last year
I trusted them too much
But they never looked at me when I was gasping their attention
Due to that
I never hesitated to let go of them
I always depend on myself that they will never turn their backs against me
But what can I do?
This is what happened to us
They let me fall
They let me fail
They let me forget about them
They are not my friends

These past few days
I had fun
Last Saturday
It was a fine day
A very fine day
We had a picture in a studio
Had a coffee in Starbucks
I ordered Caramel Frappe
While Ria ordered Chocochip Frappe
Don't know the exact names
It was great
A lifetime experience
Yesterday
We went to the city library
Outside was a busy avenue waiting for us
There are too many things for us to buy
Especially street foods
There are a lots of street food
And the blissful part of it
It is available in very cheap price
You can buy so many foods in just 20PhP
After gliding around
We stop by the ice cream store
Bought some pizza and ice cream
It was great
I believe that this will stay in line forever

Thanks for spending time reading this
Hope you had a nice minutes with my story

"I am boundless. Tell me in time, let spread these wings. I am free."

---- Sponge Cola ( Boundless )

--marc22o8eliyha

The Hatred

"What's the use of turning back if there will be no way for you to go where you came from?"

Ever felt like alone?
Enraged with yourself to blame on?
The one you whom depend on left you alone in the air?
Running back to nowhere?
Well my friend
Sit along
We have a story to share

I don't know what's the reason
I really really hate them
I always thought it was due to inequality
But as I turn the pages
There seems to be a new meaning
Living with them is not a great idea for me
There's no ending in contrasting ideologies
The one believes that they are perfect
While the other reclaims to be a sinner
The one is a perfect since they never commit mistakes in their life
And the other one accepts his defeat and downfalls
Such an inadequate comparison

As we walk in this life
We will see different colours that will blind us
We can feel like we are walking in the rainbow
The one you that you thought as beautiful
Will be the one to bring you on your knees
Asking if there will be light is not bad at all
It is just a matter of knowing what awaits you

I don't know why
But I'm really mad at them
I was gasping for freedom in their kingdom
I felt like there's no trust from them for me to hold
The worst part is
They are pushing every positive thing inside my mind
Even if I can not feel it already
It's very hard to believe that they can never give you
What you really wanted
They always say that you have their trust
But when you see the other one
You can really tell that there's no room for you
You don't have even a bit of their trust

Still
I'm still happy
Aside the fact that I'm suffering
Thanks to my girlfriend, Ria
She never stand and wait for me
She never looked and let go
Especially the time I need her most
When the world tries to throw me
She is the only that refrained
And making it not to happen
I'm so happy she's MINE
And with that
They can never push me to stop loving her
Who in the hell are they at the first place?
They are not my wheels for my life
I have my own decision
They have no right no tell me what shall I do
Even if I'm a male
I'M STILL A HUMAN

"We share the sorrow."

--- Sponge Cola ( All We Need )

--marc22o8eliyha

Staring At Nowhere

"I'm running in a beam of light where shadows don't exist. Every step I take seems to kill the inside of me. As I stare to the sky, I realize that the cries of the unknown species where I belong was slowly bleeding, and can't be healed anymore. I'm gasping for something I don't own but treating as my own property. And when the time comes that I reach the end, there will be nothing for me but to become a shadow where nobody can see me."

I was not in good condition these past few days
I was depressed
I know it may not sound good since I'm a male
But I don't care
I'm just a human breathing for someone
It was bit hard for me since the truth
There was a time where I felt that I'm alone in my own world
I really don't like to put it in here
I just put it just to express myself
I can't also hold myself
There's only one person whom I shared everything that runs in my mind on that particular time
I just don't want her to be affected since she was also damaged
Sorry...
I just don't want you to feel what gasping is

I was stocked between myself and my emotions
I don't know what to do
I never want it to run that way
But I have no power to stop the clock's movement
The only thing I can do is to let time pass by
It feels like I'm running without any direction
I also think that that will mark an end
But fortunately
It is not
But there's another day for me to treat like the day where I will day
It will be 3 days from now
I really have no clue for that particular date
Aside of the way I think that I will sink
How I wish that day will be an illusion or just the dream I had last night
It was not too highlight
But there's a scene that almost killed me
I'm trusting that person so I don't think that it'll happen
Well, sorry for my entry today is full of unspecific thoughts and logic
I just still want some privacy even though I almost said everything
This morning
During our English class
We had an exam
But since I finished it
I sleep for a while
When I wake up
I felt a little bit lighter
I realized that when the time I was asleep
I was out of this world
I forgot everything in my life
Even my own name
And the best part is
It is like my own world where I'm alone before
So dark that even lights can't shine

Am I lost again?
I also felt bad in this box
Everyone in here is just the same
They can't trust the black sheep
All they can do is to trust the precious one
And blame everything that happens on the black one
Well, I can't blame them too much
I know I had my mistakes
I'm not perfect
But the hardest thing is that
They'll push you to your limits
Just to say that you are nothing in this box
I want to have a life
Not too free
But free to even one aspect
The aspect I share with her
Being with her is always a blissful second
But with them binding my shadow
It was such an unpleasant minute
Even you are enjoying every moment you share
You still can't move freely if you are inside a cage that you are with anywhere you go
I never wanted this to become this
Hope you understand
When something happens to me badly
I just want you to know
I'm happy being with you
But it was such a tightrope where I was caught

"Close your eyes and everything comes to life."

---- Sponge Cola ( Lights )

--marc22o8eliyha

Silent Screams

Currently at an I-cafe
Not exactly bored
Feeling fine
I little bit better

This week's fine
Just a bit pressuring
Feeling very tense
Grades made me sunk in the ground
It almost killed me
Knowing that this is the last quarter for me to do such things
It was never an easier way for me
My teacher said that my Filipino was a positive one
But my Chemistry has a negative 3 disadvantage against me
Also, my Advance Algebra
I felt that it will sink
Our project in Filipino is somehow difficult
We will have a role-play for Florante at Laura
It is a love story

The days were torn apart
There was no day for me to sleep tightly
There was too much emotions
I hate this time of life
Feels like everything that's mine
Is getting lost 'cause they're pulling them
Including the only person I own
He tried to get
One word
M*****F*****
Get lost
She's mine
Not yours
One more major problem for me
I really felt that my grades are gasping
And the higher-ups demand for more
Are they going to stop us?
Will she let go 'cause of that?
Am I going to be left in the center
Is there a chance for me to revive it?
Is this my last breathe?
Is there nothing left for me to hold?
Am I going to be the loner-type once again just because of them?

These days were really bad
There are times were I lost myself
There are times i hate myself
There are time even people around are getting involved in my agony
I don't want that to happen
They are innocent
My misery is non of their business
This is my world
There's not a part of it for them
Aside the fact that almost my whole life is given to someone already
The one that cared about me
The one that love me
The one that made me happy
The one that made me feel special
The one that's MINE
Wish we're stronger and unbreakable
Wishing that she won't go

Thanks for reading

"You can thank all the stars all you want but, I'll always be the lucky one."

---- Rico Blanco ( Your Universe )

--marc22o8eliyha

Why does every second cotinues to fall?

There's nothing special these past few days
I honestly don't have anything to write in this entry
I was just bored
And Ria asked me to do some
And this is my another junk product

Yesterday
I woke up around 10am
I didn't have complete sleep since I'm doing something
Not the one you are thinking right now
I had a conversation the whole night
But it was not up to the fullest
I was fixing our computer
To make it a Wi-Fi ready one
It was way too hard
I failed
I don't know what to do next
It was a hell
I just don't know why did they like to have it as a wireless one
Since it'll do just the same
Having a static connection was too easy
Just like a puzzle
Connecting wires to different port
And it is already done
While in wireless one
You still have to remember different codes and passwords
They just don't get how hard it is to fix such connection
Since it is not them who will fix it
But the slave named me
They never cared at all

We went to a dentist
And went to a nearby grocery
At the grocery
I saw store selling pins
And I bought 3 pieces
2 pieces of pin with a design of number 22
While the other one is 17
As I go home
To our house I mean
I fixed my guitar case and put my newly bought pins
My guitar case looks good after
I have 9 pins in the case
In was a good design
I'm still planning to cover the whole guitar case with pins
I'm sure that it'll look good

Right now I don't know what to do
I just simply don't know what's next for me
Right now I'm listening to my created Sponge Cola playlist
It is all the Sponge Cola songs
Including songs from their EP
From Palabas: The Romeo and Juliet Experience
From Transit Deluxe
From Sponge Cola
And even some unreleased singles
It is great
Right now is an unreleased song entitle
"She Don't"
It is a nice song
Simple

I'm still trying to think something for this to become longer
I just don't know why am I so addicted to Sponge Cola
I'm not getting tired of listening to their songs
Unlike hits from other artist
After listening for the same song in 2 hour straight
I like to change it already
But in Sponge Cola
I'm listening to it since I was grade 5
Which is around 4 years ago
And I never find it it awful
It is still in harmony
Way too good
I even asked my friends and relatives to listen to them
And they also found them good
Even my girlfriend
She's a listener of foreign songs
But she chose a Sponge Cola song for us
She enjoyed it too much
My cousins
They like religious songs
After hearing Sponge Cola songs
They also found it good

Well I think I don't have anything left for this one
Thanks for reading

"I let myself to drown."

---- Sponge Cola ( She Don't )

--marc22o8eliyha

22

"Halika ka.
Iyong lunurin ang problema't kalimutan.
May tanong pa ba?
'Di na kailangang magisip pagkat bughaw ang ating langit."
These are the 1st 4 lines of the 1st verse of the song 22
Made by Sponge Cola
It was asking for the listener's trust
And leave behind those bad memories
That is to be replaced by new and exciting ones

22
A very special number in my life
It is not a date that is connected to my love life
It is not a date of something memorable
It is not a date that lived in infamy
But it is a date for myself to serve myself
Aside from I'm just using myself for my own good
And let him be the one to suffer all my deeds
Such an imbalance for both of us
22 has been my number since around grade 6
The first number that caught my attention was 25
I didn't know why did I like that
But I played with it
'Till I realized that 22 is much better

"Malapit na akong matunaw.
Puso ko't damdamin ay sumisigaw."
There are other numbers that I like
Including my special 8
Funny reasoned 4
Semi-special numbers 17,14 and 29
And another special 13
4 is the only favorite number for personal reason
While the others is because my an aspect of my life
Having many numbers is sometimes difficult
You'll never know what you will prioritize
And sometimes
Feeling jealous or some kind when you saw it to others
But if you have many of those
It simply means you treasure something due to it
And it means to me that you are treasuring even a part of your short life

"Ito na ang sandali.
Asahan mong makikinig ng walang maliw.
'Di na kailangan pang itago ang nadarama't magduda.
Matagal ka nang naiinip diba?"
Yeah you are right
Today is my day
My day in the 2009th year
And I am very happy today
Aside from receiving presents including today
I received 3 pins from my 3 former classmates
I got to play Need For Speed: Undercover and Naruto Shippuden: Narutimate Accel 2
In NFS
I've used Mitsubishi Lancer Evolution IX
I won't against my friend
I'm not sure if it is Bryan or Daryl
It was fun
We played a Sprint mode
While in Naruto
I've used my personal favorite
'Akasuna No Sasori'
Or simply 'Sasori of the Red Sands'
He's a hell of a character
Not as popular as Naruto
Not as handsome as Sasuke
Not as fast as Rock Lee
Not as powerful but Gaara
Not as senseful like Neji
Not as wise as Shikamaru
But simply everything like himself
He has his own identity
I lost the match
But before they go home
We played Tekken 5
It was 0-13 in favor of me
I was using Lee Chaolan and Hwoarang
They are using Devil Jin, Bruce, Steve, Hwoarang and Yoshimitsu
They can never get up against my combo for the both players

"Dahil ako'y nasasabik sa muli mong pagdampi sa aking labi.
Pagkat ngayo'y hinahanap-hanap parin,
Ang iyong tamis,
Sa tuwi't-tuwina."
It was my most memorable birthday
Since it was my 1st birthday to be with my girlfriend
It was fun
We had a time of our lives
And we simply wanna stop the movements of the clock's time
I guess I've told everything about today
Thanks for reading
Hope to see you again

"Life is just not fair at all."

---- Sponge Cola ( Cigarette )

--marc22o8eliyha

Up And Down

Living was such a never easier way
But death was a hell
Well just don't mind those
It just came to my mind as I started this one
Nothing special
And it was unintentional

I was bored during the 2nd day before this
Or was I never be able to fulfill my time?
It was always boring
Not busy
But maybe
Busy because bored
Seems like it was nonsense
So as I
Did you find me nonsense?
If yes
Good
If not
Maybe you have a problem
But I would like to hear your suggestions
Just put some comments
Thanks

I'm doing nothing that's why I'm making this
Tomorrow was our last day of exam
Last day of inhumane torture while we are breathing
Such a suicide for everyone of us
But I don't mind it all
Even though I need to have a good grades for a reason
But I never liked studying
I remember around 9 years ago
While I was in kindergarten stage 1
I asked my parents to cancel my Chinese lesson
They said that it was required for our level
And now
I'm turning 3rd year high school in just a few months from now
Yet
I just remembered that I said that to my parents
When I'm sharing my story to someone
And then I said
"Ano ba 'tong kalokohan ko? Bakit 'di ko pa tinigil noon? Tuloy nahirapan ako at pinagtatawanan pa ako ngayon."
What a nonsense field my mind is running at
I also know that my grammar is wrong
Please accept it
I'm just a student
Not a dictionary nor a grammar book
But even those things get some mistakes also
Well, there's just no perfect thing in this whole world

Honestly
I don't know what to write in this entry
I just right what is passing by my mind
Guess you are thinking what are the connections of my stories
The only connection is they happened in my life even just once
And with that fact
I can't throw them away
It is me
That is me
This is my world
I just can't turn around and forget everything I've done
If that time comes
Then I prooved to myself that I'm just using myself for my own good
Pity him
Just being used by someone

I was about to study right now
But I was bored
So I wrote this
I was playing my guitar before this
Playing hits by Sandwich
I watched their gig on a television show
And I realize that I like to hear them again
So this is what I'm doing
Playing them 5 albums
Including singles form other albums
In Case Of Fire from 5 On The Floor is in the hot seat right now
I don't like foreign songs at all
Just very few of them
I don't know the reason
But one thing is certain
I like OPM music
'Cause I like it
Not because I'm a Filipino
I like the meanings
The hymms
The tempo
The combination and timing of instruments
Their just simply great

Anymore for me to say?
Don't worry
Still thinking here
Just wanted to share this thing
Tomorrow is my day
So there's a very big possiblity that I won't be posting anything in here
There will be some friends going to be present at my crib
Including The Uy brothers
My former classmate named Franklin
My cousing Eirene
And my girl Ria
I guess it will be my greatest one
'Cause I'm sharing that day with someone very special
No
Not special actually
She's just my life
Just take a look on Take Note of Me
If you like to that I'm a stupid hopeless romantic guy
Go ahead
I won't try to stop you
It's your decision
Your idea
I've got nothing to say to you
Just take care of karma
Just kidding
Too boastful am I
Right

Well I'm getting nonsense already
Gotta go
Check back for more updates

"Don't believe, everything, everything you see. Don't believe, everything, everything you feel."

---- Sandwich ( In Case Of Fire )

--marc22o8eliyha

Assassination Of Ignorance

It was a fairly hard day today
Doing unusual things that I never do during ordinary days
There was a little bit nice experience to be share of
If you are bored
Or just curious of my day
You are very much welcome and appreciated
Or if not
Thanks for reading this introduction

Today's somehow alike to other mornings
Trying to get up of from bed
And returning after a few seconds
Nothing special
There's only one slightly unusual thing I've done this mornin'
I taken a picture of mine
Even though i covered my face with the camera I've used
My left eye was still in sight
It was somehow a nice shot
It was a command
That's a reason why I've done it
Someone asked me to do it
I think you already know who SHE is

I arrived at school
Not exactly on time
But before the cut-off time for tardy students
Just as usual
We talked for a while just before the flag ceremony started
Then SHE came
And talked to her even for a while
As we go to our room for the examination
We studied Biology
Thinking it was a difficult one for us
Except for Ria
She's a Biology Queen
I mean
A Biology Quiz Bee Contestant
She was 3rd place in the whole division i think
In fact
She was exempted for Biology's 2nd quarter exam
Lucky her
How I envy her
Anyway
We just studied and studied
'Till the exam cam
It was English
Even though I didn't study enough for that
It was a little bit good
Since it was more of analysis
Just kept thinking
That it was not an exam
So I should not be pressured nor be confused due to the situation
Just enjoy shading the squares like a kindergarten student
Just shade, shade, shade and shade the whole thing
So as the Biology
Even though there is a twist of Mathematics due to the FOIL method
It was still fine
Computer
The 3rd subject for today
Was a hell
Or less I think
We asked to code too many things
'Causing my hand to fell pain due to pressured writing
It also made my head ache

As I go home
I just took of my shoes
And attacked the bed
Obviously, I lose
I took a nap before I eat lunch
I woke up at around 3pm
Still in my school's uniform
And started to eat lunch even though it was already time for an afternoon snack
I ate rich meal having Laing as my main dish
It was good
It never tasted like grass as I expected
I enjoyed it
After eating
I studied Plane Geometry and called Ria
It was not too long 'till I studied Values
Ria and I talked for about 2 hours
She left 'cause she's going to eat noodles
I just don't know what noodles it is
After an hour
We talked again
Enjoying each other's company even we are not able to see each other
'Till now
I just stopped talking to her since I was trying to study
Even I'm making this blog
How confusing am I

Earlier this morning
While inside the room of the 3rd year class
Since we are having our exam there
Gerald received a free C2 from me
Why?
He found my long lost missing Advance Algebra notebook
It was a great treasure for me
Since it was a good reference for me aside from the fact that I don't usually write notes
It was still good to have it back

Thanks for reading
I dunno when will be the next post
Farewell

"Half the time. These simple lines, may not mean a word to you. Keep in mind. That these simple lines, mean all the world to me."

---- Sponge Cola ( Keep The Fire Burning )

--marc22o8eliyha

I Must Have Left Without You. Just When I Thought I Found You.

Greetings
For about 3 months
I'm back
To share stories
To share mem'ries
To share my life

During the times that I never entered any entry
I felt almost every ups and downs of life
Particularly to the aspect of affection
There were happiness
Guilt
Sadness
Bliss
Excitement
Fear
I think that I almost felt every emotions
I also never knew that there was a side of me
That can do such things to myself
Can do such thing I thought I can never do
And I was happy for myself in that part

November
One of the most blissful moments of my life
There were many things happened
To start studying and striving for more
'Till enjoying every second of my life limit
I had a good interest in academics in this time
Might be because of Ria's command
I was forced to keep focused on the things around me
I thing I haven't introduced her to you
Henrianne Juanico Dela Cruz
Just a simple girl
Having extraordinary brains
And extraordinary personality
Not like the others that can give you everything
But she's not like also the others
That can love you too much
Of course I admit
I'm a hell of an hopeless-romantic person (ayan mine ah, sikat ka nnmn hahaha)
We went in an anime event
Together with my two other cousins and my sister
My sister was so shocked when she knew that I was courting her
She asked me if when did I started
I answered
"Lam na nila Papa"
Then I laughed
But I answered the truth afterward
20th of October
November is also when she visited our home
It was fun
A very mem'rable experience

December
One of the Most Blissful and Most Miserable one
She answered me by December 8
Around less than 2 month since I started courting her
It first it was way too fine
I was accepted by her parents
Same as her
The only problem is
My parents somehow had a hard time
In my transition of generaton
I was entering a world of the next age
I understand them
But that made a major problem
She wanted to let go
I never wanted at first
But she insisted and said that I must fix my problem with my parents
So after that incident
I confronted them immediately
Hour after
We were fixed again
Even though there might be scratches left
Scratches that might be literal or not
But that was not the only time we experienced to be cracked
The major one was when I tried to go
She was out of herself
I was still the one coming back to her arms
At first she never wanted to go back
Since she might be thinking that I might do it again
I can't stop her for thinking about that
It caused her a great damage
There's nothing I can do
But try to fix her again
And Blame myself for breaking her down
It was all my fault
Not her
Time goes by
We still together
But there was slight changes happening between the two of us

January
Slight problem occured
But it can't bring us down
We had our first month
We spend the day a little less time together
Since she was busy studying for a Mathematics' Competition
She's way to smarter than I
Few days after
Problem strikes
She had enough
And wishing me to let go of her
I never wanted but since I know that it is her decision
She'll be happy with that
I'm just setting my mind to be happy for her also
Except the fact that it caused me too much pain
Up to the point that I wanted to fail my grades
I was out of myself for two consecutive day
For the third day
Just like Jesus
She came back
Even though there was pain
I know that it will be healed by time
Now
Everything's going back to normal

Thanks for reading
I'll be back probably on January 22
My birthday

"Fixated."

---- Sponge Cola ( Saturn )

--marc2208eliyha