The Number Three

"Doesn't mean you're addicted to it, you can not live without it. Unless you need it."

It's been a while since I last posted a story-telling like entry
There's so much things that happened
It has been a very challenging role for me to be stable
Even though I failed to do my role properly
I'm still happy that it was not thoroughly abused
Although we were damaged
We still hold on

Hindrances are not hindrance at all
They are just making lives more difficult
Yet exciting
They were never there due to preventing such things
But they are present since they are included in proving trust to other people
Yeah I forgot about it
Is trusting someone very difficult for you?
Please agree with me
I don't want to be alone for the answer in this question
When you are starting to trusting a friend
A test will suddenly appear in front of you
With that
You can see if you should trust your friend will all your might
If not
Then not
There are also times that even if you are trusting him/her
That time
He/she will let go of you
And let you fall from the chair you are sitting on
Personally
People letting me down removes my trust to them
More often if they let me go more than once
Its so hard to bring the trust to them
That's why I lose friends more last year
I trusted them too much
But they never looked at me when I was gasping their attention
Due to that
I never hesitated to let go of them
I always depend on myself that they will never turn their backs against me
But what can I do?
This is what happened to us
They let me fall
They let me fail
They let me forget about them
They are not my friends

These past few days
I had fun
Last Saturday
It was a fine day
A very fine day
We had a picture in a studio
Had a coffee in Starbucks
I ordered Caramel Frappe
While Ria ordered Chocochip Frappe
Don't know the exact names
It was great
A lifetime experience
Yesterday
We went to the city library
Outside was a busy avenue waiting for us
There are too many things for us to buy
Especially street foods
There are a lots of street food
And the blissful part of it
It is available in very cheap price
You can buy so many foods in just 20PhP
After gliding around
We stop by the ice cream store
Bought some pizza and ice cream
It was great
I believe that this will stay in line forever

Thanks for spending time reading this
Hope you had a nice minutes with my story

"I am boundless. Tell me in time, let spread these wings. I am free."

---- Sponge Cola ( Boundless )

--marc22o8eliyha

The Hatred

"What's the use of turning back if there will be no way for you to go where you came from?"

Ever felt like alone?
Enraged with yourself to blame on?
The one you whom depend on left you alone in the air?
Running back to nowhere?
Well my friend
Sit along
We have a story to share

I don't know what's the reason
I really really hate them
I always thought it was due to inequality
But as I turn the pages
There seems to be a new meaning
Living with them is not a great idea for me
There's no ending in contrasting ideologies
The one believes that they are perfect
While the other reclaims to be a sinner
The one is a perfect since they never commit mistakes in their life
And the other one accepts his defeat and downfalls
Such an inadequate comparison

As we walk in this life
We will see different colours that will blind us
We can feel like we are walking in the rainbow
The one you that you thought as beautiful
Will be the one to bring you on your knees
Asking if there will be light is not bad at all
It is just a matter of knowing what awaits you

I don't know why
But I'm really mad at them
I was gasping for freedom in their kingdom
I felt like there's no trust from them for me to hold
The worst part is
They are pushing every positive thing inside my mind
Even if I can not feel it already
It's very hard to believe that they can never give you
What you really wanted
They always say that you have their trust
But when you see the other one
You can really tell that there's no room for you
You don't have even a bit of their trust

Still
I'm still happy
Aside the fact that I'm suffering
Thanks to my girlfriend, Ria
She never stand and wait for me
She never looked and let go
Especially the time I need her most
When the world tries to throw me
She is the only that refrained
And making it not to happen
I'm so happy she's MINE
And with that
They can never push me to stop loving her
Who in the hell are they at the first place?
They are not my wheels for my life
I have my own decision
They have no right no tell me what shall I do
Even if I'm a male
I'M STILL A HUMAN

"We share the sorrow."

--- Sponge Cola ( All We Need )

--marc22o8eliyha

Staring At Nowhere

"I'm running in a beam of light where shadows don't exist. Every step I take seems to kill the inside of me. As I stare to the sky, I realize that the cries of the unknown species where I belong was slowly bleeding, and can't be healed anymore. I'm gasping for something I don't own but treating as my own property. And when the time comes that I reach the end, there will be nothing for me but to become a shadow where nobody can see me."

I was not in good condition these past few days
I was depressed
I know it may not sound good since I'm a male
But I don't care
I'm just a human breathing for someone
It was bit hard for me since the truth
There was a time where I felt that I'm alone in my own world
I really don't like to put it in here
I just put it just to express myself
I can't also hold myself
There's only one person whom I shared everything that runs in my mind on that particular time
I just don't want her to be affected since she was also damaged
Sorry...
I just don't want you to feel what gasping is

I was stocked between myself and my emotions
I don't know what to do
I never want it to run that way
But I have no power to stop the clock's movement
The only thing I can do is to let time pass by
It feels like I'm running without any direction
I also think that that will mark an end
But fortunately
It is not
But there's another day for me to treat like the day where I will day
It will be 3 days from now
I really have no clue for that particular date
Aside of the way I think that I will sink
How I wish that day will be an illusion or just the dream I had last night
It was not too highlight
But there's a scene that almost killed me
I'm trusting that person so I don't think that it'll happen
Well, sorry for my entry today is full of unspecific thoughts and logic
I just still want some privacy even though I almost said everything
This morning
During our English class
We had an exam
But since I finished it
I sleep for a while
When I wake up
I felt a little bit lighter
I realized that when the time I was asleep
I was out of this world
I forgot everything in my life
Even my own name
And the best part is
It is like my own world where I'm alone before
So dark that even lights can't shine

Am I lost again?
I also felt bad in this box
Everyone in here is just the same
They can't trust the black sheep
All they can do is to trust the precious one
And blame everything that happens on the black one
Well, I can't blame them too much
I know I had my mistakes
I'm not perfect
But the hardest thing is that
They'll push you to your limits
Just to say that you are nothing in this box
I want to have a life
Not too free
But free to even one aspect
The aspect I share with her
Being with her is always a blissful second
But with them binding my shadow
It was such an unpleasant minute
Even you are enjoying every moment you share
You still can't move freely if you are inside a cage that you are with anywhere you go
I never wanted this to become this
Hope you understand
When something happens to me badly
I just want you to know
I'm happy being with you
But it was such a tightrope where I was caught

"Close your eyes and everything comes to life."

---- Sponge Cola ( Lights )

--marc22o8eliyha