Silent Screams

Currently at an I-cafe
Not exactly bored
Feeling fine
I little bit better

This week's fine
Just a bit pressuring
Feeling very tense
Grades made me sunk in the ground
It almost killed me
Knowing that this is the last quarter for me to do such things
It was never an easier way for me
My teacher said that my Filipino was a positive one
But my Chemistry has a negative 3 disadvantage against me
Also, my Advance Algebra
I felt that it will sink
Our project in Filipino is somehow difficult
We will have a role-play for Florante at Laura
It is a love story

The days were torn apart
There was no day for me to sleep tightly
There was too much emotions
I hate this time of life
Feels like everything that's mine
Is getting lost 'cause they're pulling them
Including the only person I own
He tried to get
One word
M*****F*****
Get lost
She's mine
Not yours
One more major problem for me
I really felt that my grades are gasping
And the higher-ups demand for more
Are they going to stop us?
Will she let go 'cause of that?
Am I going to be left in the center
Is there a chance for me to revive it?
Is this my last breathe?
Is there nothing left for me to hold?
Am I going to be the loner-type once again just because of them?

These days were really bad
There are times were I lost myself
There are times i hate myself
There are time even people around are getting involved in my agony
I don't want that to happen
They are innocent
My misery is non of their business
This is my world
There's not a part of it for them
Aside the fact that almost my whole life is given to someone already
The one that cared about me
The one that love me
The one that made me happy
The one that made me feel special
The one that's MINE
Wish we're stronger and unbreakable
Wishing that she won't go

Thanks for reading

"You can thank all the stars all you want but, I'll always be the lucky one."

---- Rico Blanco ( Your Universe )

--marc22o8eliyha

Why does every second cotinues to fall?

There's nothing special these past few days
I honestly don't have anything to write in this entry
I was just bored
And Ria asked me to do some
And this is my another junk product

Yesterday
I woke up around 10am
I didn't have complete sleep since I'm doing something
Not the one you are thinking right now
I had a conversation the whole night
But it was not up to the fullest
I was fixing our computer
To make it a Wi-Fi ready one
It was way too hard
I failed
I don't know what to do next
It was a hell
I just don't know why did they like to have it as a wireless one
Since it'll do just the same
Having a static connection was too easy
Just like a puzzle
Connecting wires to different port
And it is already done
While in wireless one
You still have to remember different codes and passwords
They just don't get how hard it is to fix such connection
Since it is not them who will fix it
But the slave named me
They never cared at all

We went to a dentist
And went to a nearby grocery
At the grocery
I saw store selling pins
And I bought 3 pieces
2 pieces of pin with a design of number 22
While the other one is 17
As I go home
To our house I mean
I fixed my guitar case and put my newly bought pins
My guitar case looks good after
I have 9 pins in the case
In was a good design
I'm still planning to cover the whole guitar case with pins
I'm sure that it'll look good

Right now I don't know what to do
I just simply don't know what's next for me
Right now I'm listening to my created Sponge Cola playlist
It is all the Sponge Cola songs
Including songs from their EP
From Palabas: The Romeo and Juliet Experience
From Transit Deluxe
From Sponge Cola
And even some unreleased singles
It is great
Right now is an unreleased song entitle
"She Don't"
It is a nice song
Simple

I'm still trying to think something for this to become longer
I just don't know why am I so addicted to Sponge Cola
I'm not getting tired of listening to their songs
Unlike hits from other artist
After listening for the same song in 2 hour straight
I like to change it already
But in Sponge Cola
I'm listening to it since I was grade 5
Which is around 4 years ago
And I never find it it awful
It is still in harmony
Way too good
I even asked my friends and relatives to listen to them
And they also found them good
Even my girlfriend
She's a listener of foreign songs
But she chose a Sponge Cola song for us
She enjoyed it too much
My cousins
They like religious songs
After hearing Sponge Cola songs
They also found it good

Well I think I don't have anything left for this one
Thanks for reading

"I let myself to drown."

---- Sponge Cola ( She Don't )

--marc22o8eliyha

22

"Halika ka.
Iyong lunurin ang problema't kalimutan.
May tanong pa ba?
'Di na kailangang magisip pagkat bughaw ang ating langit."
These are the 1st 4 lines of the 1st verse of the song 22
Made by Sponge Cola
It was asking for the listener's trust
And leave behind those bad memories
That is to be replaced by new and exciting ones

22
A very special number in my life
It is not a date that is connected to my love life
It is not a date of something memorable
It is not a date that lived in infamy
But it is a date for myself to serve myself
Aside from I'm just using myself for my own good
And let him be the one to suffer all my deeds
Such an imbalance for both of us
22 has been my number since around grade 6
The first number that caught my attention was 25
I didn't know why did I like that
But I played with it
'Till I realized that 22 is much better

"Malapit na akong matunaw.
Puso ko't damdamin ay sumisigaw."
There are other numbers that I like
Including my special 8
Funny reasoned 4
Semi-special numbers 17,14 and 29
And another special 13
4 is the only favorite number for personal reason
While the others is because my an aspect of my life
Having many numbers is sometimes difficult
You'll never know what you will prioritize
And sometimes
Feeling jealous or some kind when you saw it to others
But if you have many of those
It simply means you treasure something due to it
And it means to me that you are treasuring even a part of your short life

"Ito na ang sandali.
Asahan mong makikinig ng walang maliw.
'Di na kailangan pang itago ang nadarama't magduda.
Matagal ka nang naiinip diba?"
Yeah you are right
Today is my day
My day in the 2009th year
And I am very happy today
Aside from receiving presents including today
I received 3 pins from my 3 former classmates
I got to play Need For Speed: Undercover and Naruto Shippuden: Narutimate Accel 2
In NFS
I've used Mitsubishi Lancer Evolution IX
I won't against my friend
I'm not sure if it is Bryan or Daryl
It was fun
We played a Sprint mode
While in Naruto
I've used my personal favorite
'Akasuna No Sasori'
Or simply 'Sasori of the Red Sands'
He's a hell of a character
Not as popular as Naruto
Not as handsome as Sasuke
Not as fast as Rock Lee
Not as powerful but Gaara
Not as senseful like Neji
Not as wise as Shikamaru
But simply everything like himself
He has his own identity
I lost the match
But before they go home
We played Tekken 5
It was 0-13 in favor of me
I was using Lee Chaolan and Hwoarang
They are using Devil Jin, Bruce, Steve, Hwoarang and Yoshimitsu
They can never get up against my combo for the both players

"Dahil ako'y nasasabik sa muli mong pagdampi sa aking labi.
Pagkat ngayo'y hinahanap-hanap parin,
Ang iyong tamis,
Sa tuwi't-tuwina."
It was my most memorable birthday
Since it was my 1st birthday to be with my girlfriend
It was fun
We had a time of our lives
And we simply wanna stop the movements of the clock's time
I guess I've told everything about today
Thanks for reading
Hope to see you again

"Life is just not fair at all."

---- Sponge Cola ( Cigarette )

--marc22o8eliyha

Up And Down

Living was such a never easier way
But death was a hell
Well just don't mind those
It just came to my mind as I started this one
Nothing special
And it was unintentional

I was bored during the 2nd day before this
Or was I never be able to fulfill my time?
It was always boring
Not busy
But maybe
Busy because bored
Seems like it was nonsense
So as I
Did you find me nonsense?
If yes
Good
If not
Maybe you have a problem
But I would like to hear your suggestions
Just put some comments
Thanks

I'm doing nothing that's why I'm making this
Tomorrow was our last day of exam
Last day of inhumane torture while we are breathing
Such a suicide for everyone of us
But I don't mind it all
Even though I need to have a good grades for a reason
But I never liked studying
I remember around 9 years ago
While I was in kindergarten stage 1
I asked my parents to cancel my Chinese lesson
They said that it was required for our level
And now
I'm turning 3rd year high school in just a few months from now
Yet
I just remembered that I said that to my parents
When I'm sharing my story to someone
And then I said
"Ano ba 'tong kalokohan ko? Bakit 'di ko pa tinigil noon? Tuloy nahirapan ako at pinagtatawanan pa ako ngayon."
What a nonsense field my mind is running at
I also know that my grammar is wrong
Please accept it
I'm just a student
Not a dictionary nor a grammar book
But even those things get some mistakes also
Well, there's just no perfect thing in this whole world

Honestly
I don't know what to write in this entry
I just right what is passing by my mind
Guess you are thinking what are the connections of my stories
The only connection is they happened in my life even just once
And with that fact
I can't throw them away
It is me
That is me
This is my world
I just can't turn around and forget everything I've done
If that time comes
Then I prooved to myself that I'm just using myself for my own good
Pity him
Just being used by someone

I was about to study right now
But I was bored
So I wrote this
I was playing my guitar before this
Playing hits by Sandwich
I watched their gig on a television show
And I realize that I like to hear them again
So this is what I'm doing
Playing them 5 albums
Including singles form other albums
In Case Of Fire from 5 On The Floor is in the hot seat right now
I don't like foreign songs at all
Just very few of them
I don't know the reason
But one thing is certain
I like OPM music
'Cause I like it
Not because I'm a Filipino
I like the meanings
The hymms
The tempo
The combination and timing of instruments
Their just simply great

Anymore for me to say?
Don't worry
Still thinking here
Just wanted to share this thing
Tomorrow is my day
So there's a very big possiblity that I won't be posting anything in here
There will be some friends going to be present at my crib
Including The Uy brothers
My former classmate named Franklin
My cousing Eirene
And my girl Ria
I guess it will be my greatest one
'Cause I'm sharing that day with someone very special
No
Not special actually
She's just my life
Just take a look on Take Note of Me
If you like to that I'm a stupid hopeless romantic guy
Go ahead
I won't try to stop you
It's your decision
Your idea
I've got nothing to say to you
Just take care of karma
Just kidding
Too boastful am I
Right

Well I'm getting nonsense already
Gotta go
Check back for more updates

"Don't believe, everything, everything you see. Don't believe, everything, everything you feel."

---- Sandwich ( In Case Of Fire )

--marc22o8eliyha

Assassination Of Ignorance

It was a fairly hard day today
Doing unusual things that I never do during ordinary days
There was a little bit nice experience to be share of
If you are bored
Or just curious of my day
You are very much welcome and appreciated
Or if not
Thanks for reading this introduction

Today's somehow alike to other mornings
Trying to get up of from bed
And returning after a few seconds
Nothing special
There's only one slightly unusual thing I've done this mornin'
I taken a picture of mine
Even though i covered my face with the camera I've used
My left eye was still in sight
It was somehow a nice shot
It was a command
That's a reason why I've done it
Someone asked me to do it
I think you already know who SHE is

I arrived at school
Not exactly on time
But before the cut-off time for tardy students
Just as usual
We talked for a while just before the flag ceremony started
Then SHE came
And talked to her even for a while
As we go to our room for the examination
We studied Biology
Thinking it was a difficult one for us
Except for Ria
She's a Biology Queen
I mean
A Biology Quiz Bee Contestant
She was 3rd place in the whole division i think
In fact
She was exempted for Biology's 2nd quarter exam
Lucky her
How I envy her
Anyway
We just studied and studied
'Till the exam cam
It was English
Even though I didn't study enough for that
It was a little bit good
Since it was more of analysis
Just kept thinking
That it was not an exam
So I should not be pressured nor be confused due to the situation
Just enjoy shading the squares like a kindergarten student
Just shade, shade, shade and shade the whole thing
So as the Biology
Even though there is a twist of Mathematics due to the FOIL method
It was still fine
Computer
The 3rd subject for today
Was a hell
Or less I think
We asked to code too many things
'Causing my hand to fell pain due to pressured writing
It also made my head ache

As I go home
I just took of my shoes
And attacked the bed
Obviously, I lose
I took a nap before I eat lunch
I woke up at around 3pm
Still in my school's uniform
And started to eat lunch even though it was already time for an afternoon snack
I ate rich meal having Laing as my main dish
It was good
It never tasted like grass as I expected
I enjoyed it
After eating
I studied Plane Geometry and called Ria
It was not too long 'till I studied Values
Ria and I talked for about 2 hours
She left 'cause she's going to eat noodles
I just don't know what noodles it is
After an hour
We talked again
Enjoying each other's company even we are not able to see each other
'Till now
I just stopped talking to her since I was trying to study
Even I'm making this blog
How confusing am I

Earlier this morning
While inside the room of the 3rd year class
Since we are having our exam there
Gerald received a free C2 from me
Why?
He found my long lost missing Advance Algebra notebook
It was a great treasure for me
Since it was a good reference for me aside from the fact that I don't usually write notes
It was still good to have it back

Thanks for reading
I dunno when will be the next post
Farewell

"Half the time. These simple lines, may not mean a word to you. Keep in mind. That these simple lines, mean all the world to me."

---- Sponge Cola ( Keep The Fire Burning )

--marc22o8eliyha

I Must Have Left Without You. Just When I Thought I Found You.

Greetings
For about 3 months
I'm back
To share stories
To share mem'ries
To share my life

During the times that I never entered any entry
I felt almost every ups and downs of life
Particularly to the aspect of affection
There were happiness
Guilt
Sadness
Bliss
Excitement
Fear
I think that I almost felt every emotions
I also never knew that there was a side of me
That can do such things to myself
Can do such thing I thought I can never do
And I was happy for myself in that part

November
One of the most blissful moments of my life
There were many things happened
To start studying and striving for more
'Till enjoying every second of my life limit
I had a good interest in academics in this time
Might be because of Ria's command
I was forced to keep focused on the things around me
I thing I haven't introduced her to you
Henrianne Juanico Dela Cruz
Just a simple girl
Having extraordinary brains
And extraordinary personality
Not like the others that can give you everything
But she's not like also the others
That can love you too much
Of course I admit
I'm a hell of an hopeless-romantic person (ayan mine ah, sikat ka nnmn hahaha)
We went in an anime event
Together with my two other cousins and my sister
My sister was so shocked when she knew that I was courting her
She asked me if when did I started
I answered
"Lam na nila Papa"
Then I laughed
But I answered the truth afterward
20th of October
November is also when she visited our home
It was fun
A very mem'rable experience

December
One of the Most Blissful and Most Miserable one
She answered me by December 8
Around less than 2 month since I started courting her
It first it was way too fine
I was accepted by her parents
Same as her
The only problem is
My parents somehow had a hard time
In my transition of generaton
I was entering a world of the next age
I understand them
But that made a major problem
She wanted to let go
I never wanted at first
But she insisted and said that I must fix my problem with my parents
So after that incident
I confronted them immediately
Hour after
We were fixed again
Even though there might be scratches left
Scratches that might be literal or not
But that was not the only time we experienced to be cracked
The major one was when I tried to go
She was out of herself
I was still the one coming back to her arms
At first she never wanted to go back
Since she might be thinking that I might do it again
I can't stop her for thinking about that
It caused her a great damage
There's nothing I can do
But try to fix her again
And Blame myself for breaking her down
It was all my fault
Not her
Time goes by
We still together
But there was slight changes happening between the two of us

January
Slight problem occured
But it can't bring us down
We had our first month
We spend the day a little less time together
Since she was busy studying for a Mathematics' Competition
She's way to smarter than I
Few days after
Problem strikes
She had enough
And wishing me to let go of her
I never wanted but since I know that it is her decision
She'll be happy with that
I'm just setting my mind to be happy for her also
Except the fact that it caused me too much pain
Up to the point that I wanted to fail my grades
I was out of myself for two consecutive day
For the third day
Just like Jesus
She came back
Even though there was pain
I know that it will be healed by time
Now
Everything's going back to normal

Thanks for reading
I'll be back probably on January 22
My birthday

"Fixated."

---- Sponge Cola ( Saturn )

--marc2208eliyha