Syndicate Blues 5358

The Equality Among Inequalities

2010-09-02T20:08:00.000+08:00

Oh great! The last time I posted, I had a flu. Now, I think I'm developing one again. ftw!

Last Sunday, I was walking down beside a busy road along our busy city. While walking, of course I saw different people. Different people of different personality. Some auras are weak while some are lucky. And I began to ask myself.

Some people are eating at famous fastfood chains, others in some eatery, others in a 24-hour store, others just buy some biscuits and soda from a store, while others don't eat at all. Some people walk with me, some drives their vehicles or at least ride some, some kicks the pedals of their bicycles, and others just wait in a corner with their wheelchairs on. As I continue walking, I keep asking myself.

I saw street vendors and met establishment owners. I saw someone who looks so rich while beside him is someone who almost doesn't have some clothes on because of his next-to-nothing worn-out shirt. There was a kid who eats a burger, while the other kid was just busy running in the streets with his mucous spilled in his face but doesn't care about it. Seeing these things, I asked myself again.

There was a group of guys and gals, wearing colourful shirts and caps making them easily recognized as the so called "Jejemons", and on the other side of the street are wise-looking group of friends wearing their school uniform. There was this lonely lady while I saw that blissful gentlemen. Wondering while wandering, I still ask myself of the question I still can't answer.

And the question? Is of course a statement that ends in question mark.

"Why are people have different lives? Why does destiny gave some people too much luck while others don't even know what is the meaning of bucks? Why does others can not even take a bath because they don't have even a house but others swim in a sea of money?"

I want to sit down at the side of the road at that moment. I want to look what happens to people's lives everyday, every minute. And see how does differences or inequality (as they call it) works.

Who's to blame for this?

I walked a little further, trying to create an answer to my question with what I can see. But a more difficult question attacks my mind.

"Who am I?"

I can say with what I saw, people really is unique against one another. But what makes someone unique from everyone? Is it how he feels? How he looks at life? What he has? How he thinks? How he breath? What?

Do I even have the right to think and say these things?

With the differences of the people in just a certain place, I can only say that this world really is complicated. Too complicated that no mind can be too confident to know everything, even at a certain place at a certain time.

"And I don't wanna hear no more."

--Guns N' Roses (Civil War)

--ag22z

Fire Level

2010-08-04T21:06:00.000+08:00

Oh yes, you got it right. I'm hot. Too hot! Unfortunately, literally.

I've been too busy to post a new entry for the last month. Even if I wanted to do an entry as often as possible, my time just keeps on asphyxiating me and let me do nothing except for academic stuffs. What a waste of time. Yeah I know, subjects is one of the most influential teachers on everyone's life. But I just want to point out that everybody needs to break a little from their "wakeup-takeabath-eat-gotowork-work-eat-work-gohome-doworkathome-eat-continuetowork-pray-sleep" system. (No insult intended. Others are missing 1 thing from the system, just figure it out by yourself.)

I just recreated my acoustic guitar (which I often referred to as "Pula" due to its color red, and also, the guitar that thought me how to do alternative rock licks). I mixed up my mettalic blue, black, and silver paints to do it. Although I still don't have the time to finish it, I already imagined how it looks like when it is done. And surprisingly, it sucks. Not just because I did it, but it has really a "dark aura". Well we'll never know until it's done. Maybe its a way for me to listen to other genres.

This Sunday is my 1st college entrance exam. I'm kinda excited, and somehow feel pressured. Not because of it, but because of our teacher's requirements. Everybody knows I hate doing projects, especially ones needing creativity. I don't have even a shadow of that word, and it makes me sick.

Does anyone wants to trade your lungs to mine? Or is there such thing as lung transplant? Please if there is, tell it to me. Just badly needing it. Thanks

And by the way, I'll just share this to you. At the moment, I really feel like playing a guitar. Writing lyrics also. I want to do these stuffs. But I guess I can't due to my f*****g health condition. How I wish that this plague that ate me didn't like my flesh and just die. But it didn't.

Advertisement: Who wants to have a band? Or need a band member? I'm available and I also need one. I can play guitar (hard rock, not metal), bass, and a little drum. Just comment or contact me if interested.

Well thanks for reading this piece of nonsense. 'Till my next post.

"We found that part of us we lost along the way."

-- Sponge Cola (Keep the Fire Burning)

--ag22z

In Between Days

2010-06-13T02:13:00.000+08:00

I won't be continuing my other blog post for awhile. I want to express myself this time. I mean, express my thoughts at the very moment.

It's already 1:55 AM in my laptop's clock. Somehow sleepy already.

Around 2 hours ago, I was trying to create new material for our band. I just made a 2 stanza stuff, but i don't if it is "luckily" or "unluckily", it some kind of not-a-great-one. So I stopped and let myself do something that I knew I'm gonna be productive.

While browsing my music player, I first saw Mayday Parade's "Kids In Love". I grabbed my guitar and played it. Still bored, I browsed my list again, and found an "unfinished" project. It was Katy Perry's "Thinking of You". Yeah right, I know it's some kind of a "whoa man, you're listening to that song?" thing, but let me clear myself out.

The song was pretty challenging for me. It was kinda a pop-rock or just a pop but we are a rock band, so I have to make it sound great to our band. It was a pressure being the one who manages the guitar that sings. And again, after trying many times, I tried again to create guitar licks and solos for it.

It was some kind of a blessing in disguise for me not being "too inspired" to write today. 'Cause I was clearly "more inspired" to create licks. As an avant-garde guitarist, I tried to formulate a lick that would fit to the "missing link" of the song. And fortunately, I finished it. I finished the lick already, and surprisingly, I also had some modifications for the verses and other parts of the song.

Even though I finished the lick, I wasn't successful still at create a great guitar solo. Making me stick to the first idea I had.

Meanwhile, I'm still hearing my sister and cousin talking from the next room.

The start of classes will be a day from now. No idea nor imagination to what will happen on that day. I really want to go to school already, considering different factors. These factors include daily allowance, reunion with classmates and jamming with my bandmates. But there's one thing that prevents me to loving the start of classes. It's the required short hair for all male students.

I haven't visited the barber shop for around 3 months, making my hair grow in between 1 to 2 inches long. And I like it. I don't want to have short hair again. It really looks bad, real bad. But it's an order to be follow though. So I guess, I have no choice. Damn!

Well, I bet this entry will end here.

"My girl was the envy of every friend of mine. She slept safely in my arms."

-- Mayday Parade (Kids In Love)

--ag22z

The Naturally Infamous Selection

2010-05-31T22:59:00.000+08:00

Yeah, I know. I'm posting new entries every another day, but I also know that when school days hit my calendar, I won't maintain this momentum anymore.

"Ultraelectromagnetic Jam: The Music of The Eraserheads" (UEM Jam for short), this is the first album that I tried to listen to that made me aware of the band Eraserheads. It is a tribute album in relation to the band's break-up during their almost-a-decade fame in the Philippine music scene.

With their biggest hit "Ang Huling El Bimbo", Eraserheads, also known as E-heads, became the most influential band even as of today. But as a band, they said that one of their influence were Nirvana. Nirvana was a 3-piece Grunge band with members Kurt Cobain (Guitarist, Vocalist), Krist Novoselic (Bassist, Backup vocalist) and Dave Grohl (Drummer) .

Anyway, since "UEM Jam" is the album that introduced me to Eraserheads, I was also introduced to the songs only available in that recording. I am a fan of Sponge Cola, that is why their rendition of "Pare Ko" was the first song that I try listening to. I played it in my computer set with medium-high volume. At first, I thought to myself "Ah, I already heard this track before". But unaware of the lyrics, I continue until the chorus, which called the attention of my sister and mother. The chorus is made up of local explicit words such as... just kiddin', I won't post it here.

Other hits also caught my ears, including 6 Cycle Mind's "Alapaap", Imago's "Spolarium", M.Y.M.P.'s "'Wag Mo Nang Itanong" and Cueshe's "Hard To Believe". "The songs are great, so the artist are! The songs are created incredibly in terms of technicalities and lyrics." was the things I said to myself.

Together with Sponge Cola's "Palabas", I was indulged to the album for months. How was I addicted to it? Simply this way. After I got home, I'll start my computer and open the music player program. I will play either of the two. Sometimes, I'll only listen to one album per night, sometimes alternate, and sometimes even playing a single song or two from the albums. Why didn't I became bored to it? It is because I like what I'm hearing.

Of course everyone of us have a favorite amongst the favorite in a certain thing. Mine's in the "UEM Jam" is Sponge Cola's "Pare Ko" and "Neon" in Sponge Cola's "Palabas". These two songs became the prime hits played most often in my music player.

Later on, I was convinced by myself that I must hear the original versions in the "UEM Jam" to distinguish which covers are "hot" and which are "not".

It took me kinda long time (since I can't really remember how long) to have a copy of one of the most famous and influential albums in Philipine music industry. The Eraserheads' 3rd album, "Cutterpillow". Reaching 10x platinum status, "Cutterpillow" produced the band's some of the biggest hits in their career. This includes the travel-inspired story "Overdrive", the substitute song "Superproxy", a song about a dying man "Poorman's Grave", a full acoustic mellow song "Fill Her" and the song that tattooed Eraserheads in the music scene "Ang Huling El Bimbo".

I was already sick of "UEM Jam" while finding a copy of "Cutterpillow", making me stick again to one song, "Neon".

to be continued...

"Though I can't see you, I can feel you."

--Eraserheads (Fill Her)

--ag22z

Shape Of The Faded Shadow

2010-05-29T22:58:00.001+08:00

I used to be a "Cueshean", but things always differ, ayt?

After hearing Sponge Cola's Gemini, I was immediately interested with the band. I tried to hear some of their songs, but had no idea where and how to hear it. Until fate delivered it to me. (Thanks Fate!) A friend of mine lend me his album collection. The collection includes Parokya ni Edgar's "Inuman Session Vol.1", Hale's debut album "Hale" and many more stuffs from different artist which I'm not aware of at that time. While checking out the albums, I noticed a CD that stand-out against the others, and it gave me an instant smile. It was "Palabas", Sponge Cola's debut album.

Excited with what I have in my hand, I grabbed my sister's CD Player and played the song while I was lying on our sofa set. But ironically, I fell asleep during that 1st round of album.

"'Cause I, I know I can never be enough to replace your whatever." This was the line that made me realize that my eyes are already looking in the light that shines so bright by that time. I try to take a glance to the player to know the track number. And it was 4. But I don't know what is the title since the album cover is somehow far away from me. And hell yeah, I'm too lazy to get it.

That song caught my attention in no time. It has a dramatic rhythm and emotional lyrics. The chorus sounds like a desperate broken guy that can only do nothing. The verse is very solemn. But when the bridge came, it became very intense with the heavily distorted guitars. After the track, I only said 1 thing: "Wow!". It was the song that moved me too much. But still, don't know it's title.

Other tracks also convinced me that the album is worth listening for. After I try to relax myself to the other stuffs that I have, the album collection was returned to my friend. A few days after, I wanted to hear "Track No. 4" again. So I turned on my computer. But I was enraged when I saw my music player. I forgot to copy the album to my computer! At first, I think of it as a hoax when I just can't find the copy of it. But days, days not hours, days after searching for the file in my whole computer over and over again, I surrendered.

As months passed by, I somehow forgot things about "Track No. 4". But one faithful night, as I was walking in a street near a fastfood chain and a church, I saw a CD stand and I went to it. I was surprised with what I saw. It was Sponge Cola's "Palabas"! I immediately bought the album without bargaining it (Yeah, it's a fake one. I know, I know it is bad. But I still don't have a job. Isn't that a great excuse since original albums are expensive for a wallet of an elementary student?)

As we went home, I played it in our car.After 2-3 months, I heard "Track No. 4" again, and smiled. This time, I was holding the cover, so I got a chance to take a look at the title. And at last! I already know the title. "Track No.4" is called "Neon".

In connection of me learning to listen in this newly-heard band, I tried to listen to other albums and artist. As I was doing research and hearing different songs from different artist that belongs to different generations of different genres, I realized what I like. It was the Alternative Rock dimension of the Pilipino music scene also known as "OPM Alternative Rock".

I started listening to different bands such as Parokya ni Edgar, Kamikazee, Pupil, Sandwich, Moonstar88, Mojofly, Stonefree, Sugarfree, Soapdish, Mayonnaise, Imago and others that I'm sure I forgot. I was enjoying these bands while hearing a band name that I am not aware of. They even don't have a chart-topping song at that time, but everyone that talks about OPM does not forget to mention the band name. Until one day, a friend asked me "Meron ka na bang Ultraelectromagnetic Jam?", I answered "Ano po iyon?"

"Ultraelectromagnetic Jam.". And that was the first time that I had a clear knowledge about the band that they are talking about, The Eraserheads.

to be continued...

"Now everything is silent, and everything is still without you near."

--Sponge Cola (Neon)

--ag22z

Memoirs and Indefinites

2010-05-27T23:44:00.000+08:00

It was almost a year since I last visited this page. I even never thought of visiting this site again. But, I guess I'm already here by now.

The past year is great for me.I was stuck at Sinner's Lounge for a couple of months, and my musically-inspired days began after that. My regular daily practice routine came back into me. I was doing it before, but accidentally stopped it due to personal reasons, making my musical skills to somehow fade.

I started listening to music when I was around 6 years old. At that time, Pop icons are dominating the music era. And of course, every icon has their own signature song. Signature songs in that time include Britney Spear's "Oops! I did it again", Christina Aguilera's "Genie in a bottle", Westlife's "Fool again", Backstreet Boys' "Larger than life". And I'll also admit, I liked it.

They had their own commercial success by that time, until they slowly slowed down their pace. And thus, dominated by another music genre called "Hip-Hop/Dance"

Yeah, my knowledge in the edge of Hip-hop/dance is very limited, making me unable to discuss something about such stuffs.

By the year 2005, I was again interested in the music scene. It was Original Pilipino Music (OPM) that whispered in my ear. OPM Alternative Rock Bands came out from nowhere, or should I say, their time for fame is at the very moment?

At that era, there was this undisputed contrast between 2 bands namely Cueshe and Hale. I was listening more in the side of Cueshe since their debut single "Stay" won the race to my auditory nerve against Hale's "The day you said goodnight". Hence, making them my instant favoured band.

This scene became my heaviest influence. The artists made me realize that I want to have a musically-inspired, musically-inclined and musically-oriented life. My soul knocked my mind, telling him that he wants to have a band, desperately.

When I watch bands perform, I was so jealous to even just their so-called "rockstar aura". I try to look like it. Wearing lousy shirts, loosely fit jeans, rubber shoes and even a dog chain connected from my wallet to my belt buckle. But there is still 1 thing that I can't do even if I want to, to have a long hair. Oh crap...

After sometime, I noticed that I was too "locked up" in Cueshe's works. With that, I was starting to get bored in their music. My blood get pumped back again when I saw this music video. A very dark-themed video that included hundreds of chairs and an extremely large curtains. There is a story about the music, but the video stands on its own, and it is based on a very popular novel. The band is composed of 4 members and the video contained creepy-like stuffs (including a sudden show up of a lady in white). The melody was very humble but was heavily distorted by the middle of the song and a simple outro licks that will soon be a great LSS factor for you. And yes, you got it right. It's Sponge Cola's "Gemini".

to be continued...

"Let me know if dreams can come true."

--Sponge Cola (Gemini)

--ag22z

Today Is Never An Another Day

2009-06-06T11:46:00.003+08:00

"Is tomorrow will be like yesterday?"

It's been around 2 months since I last posted. How ironic is it that not posting while it is vacation. I never saw vacation either. It was not fun for me at all. I did not get what I want. Instead, it was hell. There were only too many problems to handle with and, even if I admit it or not, I lost. Yeah, it is frustrating indeed. But what can I do? It is how my life drifted and I never had the control over the accelerator nor the steering wheel.

Those times, I never thought of being wrong, neither being right. I just wanted to be happy. But everything turned out against it. I'm just wanted to be happy but there are really persons who distorted my wishes and made me snap out of it. I tried to fight for it. I instantly lost, and, became the bad guy. It really is not fun.

My second year in high school ended. And I'm already in my third year. I really think it is just the same. Ironically, it really has a different environment since majority of the persons in the same box as I am, is a stranger to me. Including our mentors, including our adviser, including myself. I found myself in a different dimension as compared from before. Subjects is not as easy nor is not hard as it seems ( I guess ). Classmates are not hard to be with ( I'm not sure about the others ). Personal life is not being taken to the next level, since I am facing new combinations and patterns of attitudes and lookout through life.

Back during the 2 months of my absence. It almost changed everything in me. Including my life. I feel like I can't stand for myself. I am helpless with myself. I know there are some people trying to help me. But I guess, I really can not help myself even by using their help. They tried every way to help me. I don't know how to respond. What I want them to accept in me is to be happy where I am happy. I can't take it anymore. The more I get happy, the more they get mad at me. I fought for my happiness. I lost. I defended myself. I still lost. I pushed them to accept me. I lost, lost, lost, and lost. I can't help it anymore. Damn.

Right now, I am listening to Sponge Cola's A Tear from their self-titled album, Sponge Cola ( but also available in their Extended Play ). It somehow summarizes what am I feeling. Even if Neon is my life's song, I still like this very much. It talks about the presence of a certain person and suddenly lost, trying to be happy, looking for someone, and the greatest part, being ignored even in the time that the person needs an attention to anyone especially from the most important ones. It sounds pessimist, but as pessimist that it seems. The person is just asking for an attention that no one could give.

For this blog, as you can see, I tried a new way of posting my works. I'm already sucked with the old way. I need to change and be matured enough for the outlook of myself. I can't stick forever to those childish things forever. I must go and find another way for living. A way to fill my stomach and my pocket reasonably. I know I sound funny and immatured, but I just want to express my thoughts. I apologize if someone is getting me on their nerves and I want to thank everyone who helped me, especially Henrianne ( my girlfriend ) who keeps me optimistic and helping me to be what I wanted.

'Till next time. Thanks. For anything you want tosay, just leave a comment. Even though the bill is not passed yet, I accept and respect the right to reply bill already.

"Alam kong dati ka nang masaya, pero ang problema'y ako, diba?"

-- Itchyworms ( Yokonakitangmakita )

--marc22o8eliyha

Walang Kwentang Mga Bagay

2009-03-31T20:47:00.003+08:00

"Bakit ba maraming basura sa mundo?"

Magtatagalog ako ngayon
Hindi ko kaya mag-English

Bakit ba naimbento ang mga bagay?
Necessity?
Kahit may nasisira itong ibang bagay?
Kahit maraming hindi sang-ayon dito?
Hindi ba naiintindihan ng gumawa ng bagay n 'yon na marami siyang sinirang buhay?

Alam ba niya kung ano ang epekto nito sa kapaligiran?
Hindi lang sa kalikasan kundi sa mga tao mismo?
Alam ba niya na maraming nasisira ang buhay dahil dito?
Bakit hindi niya magawang makita ang mga nangyayare?
Bulag ba siya?
Wala talagang pakealam?
Galit sa mundo?
Galit sa tao kaya gumaganti sa ibang hindi niya kilala?
Ano?
Ganon na ba siya kasama
Na pati bata sirain niya ang buhay?

Ano ba kalokohan niya?
Bakit ba niya inimbento iyon?
Naiintindihan ba niya ang mga nararamdaman ng mga taong nagmamalasakit?
Malamang sa hindi
Kung oo
Edi matagal na niya tinigil ang kasamaan niya
Kaso sadyang wala siyang kwentang tao
Ginamit parin niya iyon para lang sa sariling interest
Ang pera
Bakit ba?
Madadala mo ba pera mo sa langit o impyerno?
Magbabayad ka ba kay San Pedro para palusutin ka?
Magbibigay ka kay Satanas para iakyat kang langit?
Magpapagawa ka ng casino sa kabilang buhay?
Magtitinda ng ginawa niyang bagay na sumira sa milyon-milyong buhay na inosente?
O sadyang gusto niya lamang na maghari sa lahat?

Gumising ang mga naloloko
Ano ba problema niyo
Lahat tayo biktima
Ako
Ikaw
Sila
Kami
Kayo
Tayo
TAYO
LAHAT TAYO
SIRA ANG BUHAY DAHIL SA ISANG WALANG KWENTANG BAGAY
Papayag ka bang sumaya ng todo ngayon
At durugin ang kaluluwa mo bukas?
MAG-ISIP KA
BAGO KA TAWAGING
TANGA

"Ano ba talaga mas-gusto mo? Ang beer na 'to o ang pag-ibig ko?"

---- Itchyworms ( Beer )

--marc2208eliyha

The Dust

2009-03-23T17:09:00.004+08:00

"All of your efforts are either diminished, distorted, or disregarded."

It is been so hard to be with everybody
Especially when all the thing you do
Is a mistake in their eyes
Pouring too much effort is not enough at all
The worst of it
The more effort you put on
And was ignored in moments
Your emotion will collapse in an instant
And it can bring you permanent damages
And these damages are harder to break

I can never seem to understand why there are people always have or like to hurt others
Others back stab
While others hit it head by head
It is a little bit frustrating when one of the worthiest people turn their back against you
Especially when you do not see any reason for it
When somebody hits you
Never turn again unguarded
Fight for your goal
How ever lost your ship is
You'll still be able to see the shore you are searching for
And the worst part of it
When it is your turn to return the favor to them
They will be more enraged to you
Making your life an instant hell

A bad or a good person
Is somebody a bad or a good one?
Can you tell who are the bad and good ones?
Can you tell me if you are a bad or a good one?
Majority will answer good o course
But I'm expecting to see a person answer bad
Why?
Yeah. why?
Just tell me why?
Because you returned your parents' change when they asked you to buy some eggs at the store?
Because you "respect" everyone?
Because you study too well?
Because you answered you teacher immorally?
Because you used your sister's hairspray without permission?
Because you spanked your baby bro?
Because you paid the right amount, or more?
Or is it because you just liked it?
Until now
I can never say why everyone of us
Admitted or not
Judges others so drastically
I can never say that I'm not judging people
I also do it
But the main point is
Who we are to judge others?
Are a the corrupt leader to say that we are good?
Are we a good player of basketball to say such pike-like words that stabs others?

"Time won't flow."

---- The Speaks ( High )

--marc2208eliyha

Stained Glass

2009-03-20T20:55:00.004+08:00

"Colours never shows the true meaning."

I've been pretty bored today
Not just today but the whole time around
I never asked to cross boundaries with this life
Even though I though I did
I still did not

We had our exams this past week
And it was a hell-damned hard
It almost never let me to turn the wheel and a full straight ahead
But I insisted to myself to do what I like
So I've done what i wished for
I just treat my afternoon as my free time
And my evening as my last minute to complete my stuffs
From my childhood
I always wonder
Why do we have to go to an Primary Education Stage?
Secondary?
And then College where we can really push ourselves to what we like
And after getting a job
You'll like searching for a snow here in the Philippines when getting a job
I always think about this routine
Why does everybody makes life of everybody so miserable and not make it more simple?
Having a difficult life is a very great continually

Some of the questions really made my mouth shut and let me tell to myself
That I'm still not enough to have great mind
And the most frustrating part
Is when you pushed yourself to the limit 'till you really gave up since there's no more hope
That's the time when you'll see yourself hit the floor better
Disappointment of one matter can really drop you for the next one
Since most of the difficult subjects came first
And those were the ones that destroyed me
The next cuisines is not appreciated anymore due to the destroyed appetite
It was really brain-twisting that even my pens gave up
One was lost and suddenly found the day after the last exam
And the other one almost ran out of ink
I pity such items
Innocently suffering 'cause of the unknown reason to them
Not just the pens
Include also the papers
They were attacked by the pens by shading some part of them

Studying was quite tiring
And makes me lazy
You'll have to read what happen what you had understand
Over and over all the time
It'll make you dizzy after all
And not to absorb anything since you don't feel good while reading
The implications very complicated though
It feels like your running for the goal even if you must lose the game

Socialization
This word doesn't sound too much to me
I have very few friends
Some of the others have left me
While I left others but I also don't why
It is hard to be alone
Too difficult to be a loner one
Even though I have my girl
Friends are still different
I envy my classmates that go to the mall together
While for me
I just can't go to the mall that easy
I still have to let my parents know every details of it
And sometimes I just decline those
'Cause I'm afraid to be frustrated if my parents disagree
It is more depressing to me
Especially when I'm the only one who is not joining them
I wanted to go anywhere at anytime
It feels really great
But what can I do?
I'm just a student
A puppet of the higher ups

"Between the lines we speak that rise at me, will there ever be a chance?"

---- Sponge Cola ( 98603 )

--marc2208eliyha

mine :))

2009-03-20T17:23:00.002+08:00

i lloovvee youu!! hehe :)) wala lng aq magawa :)) grabe, almost four months n din tau :) and still going strong :) hope whatever happens, tau p rin :) khit pa gaano kalayo at kalupet ang mga mkakasalubong ntin n challenge :)

mhal n mhal ko po ikw MiNE QO! sooobrang mhal n mhal :))

When Cigarette's Ash Drops To Your Shoulder

2009-03-04T18:30:00.001+08:00

"What would you do if everybody's hero betrayed you?"

One day
I realized one thing
That I hate my hero
I feel like I am the only one in this world
Who hates his hero
I've never heard someone's scream that pointed out that way

Running against myself
Unable to achieve bliss anymore
So down
So frustrated
So lonely
So loner
So mad
So guilt
I felt like
I am feeling every negative emotions in this world
I dunno what to do for every breath I take
Because of my problems
I hurt the only one who lifted me up
I was so angry to myself
What if I lose that someone?
Can I still breath by myself in this surrounding?
Will someone care for me?
Should someone love me?
Would someone lift me back to where I was when she lifted me?
I never think that there will be someone
Equal or greater to how she raised me
She taught how to blow things up
To realize what the word LIFE means
And now I broke her again
I was so fixated to move even a muscle due to that
Everybody left me aside from her
But still
I felt like I never treasured her because of what I've done
I HATE MYSELF
This is all my fault
I don't know what is running to her mind at the present
Is she mad at me?
I can't blame her
I shattered the mirror we are trying to fix
I ended up the efforts we've done to nowhere

I can never say what will happen next to my days
Sometime I wish to let it end
But I guess I can't
The only one who supported me needs me now
I can just leave her at that climax of the hours
Though my depression seems to destroy my brain
I know that I must overcome it
Since she is the reason why I live
Why I breath
Why I smile
Why I care so much
Why I love
I am so confused now
I don't know what is the right thing to do
I feel like
There's no thing for me to do
That is RIGHT

"I can't go on without you."

---- Secondhand Serenade ( Vulnerable )

--marc22o8eliyha

The Number Three

2009-02-18T18:01:00.004+08:00

"Doesn't mean you're addicted to it, you can not live without it. Unless you need it."

It's been a while since I last posted a story-telling like entry
There's so much things that happened
It has been a very challenging role for me to be stable
Even though I failed to do my role properly
I'm still happy that it was not thoroughly abused
Although we were damaged
We still hold on

Hindrances are not hindrance at all
They are just making lives more difficult
Yet exciting
They were never there due to preventing such things
But they are present since they are included in proving trust to other people
Yeah I forgot about it
Is trusting someone very difficult for you?
Please agree with me
I don't want to be alone for the answer in this question
When you are starting to trusting a friend
A test will suddenly appear in front of you
With that
You can see if you should trust your friend will all your might
If not
Then not
There are also times that even if you are trusting him/her
That time
He/she will let go of you
And let you fall from the chair you are sitting on
Personally
People letting me down removes my trust to them
More often if they let me go more than once
Its so hard to bring the trust to them
That's why I lose friends more last year
I trusted them too much
But they never looked at me when I was gasping their attention
Due to that
I never hesitated to let go of them
I always depend on myself that they will never turn their backs against me
But what can I do?
This is what happened to us
They let me fall
They let me fail
They let me forget about them
They are not my friends

These past few days
I had fun
Last Saturday
It was a fine day
A very fine day
We had a picture in a studio
Had a coffee in Starbucks
I ordered Caramel Frappe
While Ria ordered Chocochip Frappe
Don't know the exact names
It was great
A lifetime experience
Yesterday
We went to the city library
Outside was a busy avenue waiting for us
There are too many things for us to buy
Especially street foods
There are a lots of street food
And the blissful part of it
It is available in very cheap price
You can buy so many foods in just 20PhP
After gliding around
We stop by the ice cream store
Bought some pizza and ice cream
It was great
I believe that this will stay in line forever

Thanks for spending time reading this
Hope you had a nice minutes with my story

"I am boundless. Tell me in time, let spread these wings. I am free."

---- Sponge Cola ( Boundless )

--marc22o8eliyha

The Hatred

2009-02-17T20:27:00.002+08:00

"What's the use of turning back if there will be no way for you to go where you came from?"

Ever felt like alone?
Enraged with yourself to blame on?
The one you whom depend on left you alone in the air?
Running back to nowhere?
Well my friend
Sit along
We have a story to share

I don't know what's the reason
I really really hate them
I always thought it was due to inequality
But as I turn the pages
There seems to be a new meaning
Living with them is not a great idea for me
There's no ending in contrasting ideologies
The one believes that they are perfect
While the other reclaims to be a sinner
The one is a perfect since they never commit mistakes in their life
And the other one accepts his defeat and downfalls
Such an inadequate comparison

As we walk in this life
We will see different colours that will blind us
We can feel like we are walking in the rainbow
The one you that you thought as beautiful
Will be the one to bring you on your knees
Asking if there will be light is not bad at all
It is just a matter of knowing what awaits you

I don't know why
But I'm really mad at them
I was gasping for freedom in their kingdom
I felt like there's no trust from them for me to hold
The worst part is
They are pushing every positive thing inside my mind
Even if I can not feel it already
It's very hard to believe that they can never give you
What you really wanted
They always say that you have their trust
But when you see the other one
You can really tell that there's no room for you
You don't have even a bit of their trust

Still
I'm still happy
Aside the fact that I'm suffering
Thanks to my girlfriend, Ria
She never stand and wait for me
She never looked and let go
Especially the time I need her most
When the world tries to throw me
She is the only that refrained
And making it not to happen
I'm so happy she's MINE
And with that
They can never push me to stop loving her
Who in the hell are they at the first place?
They are not my wheels for my life
I have my own decision
They have no right no tell me what shall I do
Even if I'm a male
I'M STILL A HUMAN

"We share the sorrow."

--- Sponge Cola ( All We Need )

--marc22o8eliyha

Staring At Nowhere

2009-02-04T18:40:00.006+08:00

"I'm running in a beam of light where shadows don't exist. Every step I take seems to kill the inside of me. As I stare to the sky, I realize that the cries of the unknown species where I belong was slowly bleeding, and can't be healed anymore. I'm gasping for something I don't own but treating as my own property. And when the time comes that I reach the end, there will be nothing for me but to become a shadow where nobody can see me."

I was not in good condition these past few days
I was depressed
I know it may not sound good since I'm a male
But I don't care
I'm just a human breathing for someone
It was bit hard for me since the truth
There was a time where I felt that I'm alone in my own world
I really don't like to put it in here
I just put it just to express myself
I can't also hold myself
There's only one person whom I shared everything that runs in my mind on that particular time
I just don't want her to be affected since she was also damaged
Sorry...
I just don't want you to feel what gasping is

I was stocked between myself and my emotions
I don't know what to do
I never want it to run that way
But I have no power to stop the clock's movement
The only thing I can do is to let time pass by
It feels like I'm running without any direction
I also think that that will mark an end
But fortunately
It is not
But there's another day for me to treat like the day where I will day
It will be 3 days from now
I really have no clue for that particular date
Aside of the way I think that I will sink
How I wish that day will be an illusion or just the dream I had last night
It was not too highlight
But there's a scene that almost killed me
I'm trusting that person so I don't think that it'll happen
Well, sorry for my entry today is full of unspecific thoughts and logic
I just still want some privacy even though I almost said everything
This morning
During our English class
We had an exam
But since I finished it
I sleep for a while
When I wake up
I felt a little bit lighter
I realized that when the time I was asleep
I was out of this world
I forgot everything in my life
Even my own name
And the best part is
It is like my own world where I'm alone before
So dark that even lights can't shine

Am I lost again?
I also felt bad in this box
Everyone in here is just the same
They can't trust the black sheep
All they can do is to trust the precious one
And blame everything that happens on the black one
Well, I can't blame them too much
I know I had my mistakes
I'm not perfect
But the hardest thing is that
They'll push you to your limits
Just to say that you are nothing in this box
I want to have a life
Not too free
But free to even one aspect
The aspect I share with her
Being with her is always a blissful second
But with them binding my shadow
It was such an unpleasant minute
Even you are enjoying every moment you share
You still can't move freely if you are inside a cage that you are with anywhere you go
I never wanted this to become this
Hope you understand
When something happens to me badly
I just want you to know
I'm happy being with you
But it was such a tightrope where I was caught

"Close your eyes and everything comes to life."

---- Sponge Cola ( Lights )

--marc22o8eliyha

Silent Screams

2009-01-31T16:19:00.004+08:00

Currently at an I-cafe
Not exactly bored
Feeling fine
I little bit better

This week's fine
Just a bit pressuring
Feeling very tense
Grades made me sunk in the ground
It almost killed me
Knowing that this is the last quarter for me to do such things
It was never an easier way for me
My teacher said that my Filipino was a positive one
But my Chemistry has a negative 3 disadvantage against me
Also, my Advance Algebra
I felt that it will sink
Our project in Filipino is somehow difficult
We will have a role-play for Florante at Laura
It is a love story

The days were torn apart
There was no day for me to sleep tightly
There was too much emotions
I hate this time of life
Feels like everything that's mine
Is getting lost 'cause they're pulling them
Including the only person I own
He tried to get
One word
M*****F*****
Get lost
She's mine
Not yours
One more major problem for me
I really felt that my grades are gasping
And the higher-ups demand for more
Are they going to stop us?
Will she let go 'cause of that?
Am I going to be left in the center
Is there a chance for me to revive it?
Is this my last breathe?
Is there nothing left for me to hold?
Am I going to be the loner-type once again just because of them?

These days were really bad
There are times were I lost myself
There are times i hate myself
There are time even people around are getting involved in my agony
I don't want that to happen
They are innocent
My misery is non of their business
This is my world
There's not a part of it for them
Aside the fact that almost my whole life is given to someone already
The one that cared about me
The one that love me
The one that made me happy
The one that made me feel special
The one that's MINE
Wish we're stronger and unbreakable
Wishing that she won't go

Thanks for reading

"You can thank all the stars all you want but, I'll always be the lucky one."

---- Rico Blanco ( Your Universe )

--marc22o8eliyha

Why does every second cotinues to fall?

2009-01-24T12:43:00.003+08:00

There's nothing special these past few days
I honestly don't have anything to write in this entry
I was just bored
And Ria asked me to do some
And this is my another junk product

Yesterday
I woke up around 10am
I didn't have complete sleep since I'm doing something
Not the one you are thinking right now
I had a conversation the whole night
But it was not up to the fullest
I was fixing our computer
To make it a Wi-Fi ready one
It was way too hard
I failed
I don't know what to do next
It was a hell
I just don't know why did they like to have it as a wireless one
Since it'll do just the same
Having a static connection was too easy
Just like a puzzle
Connecting wires to different port
And it is already done
While in wireless one
You still have to remember different codes and passwords
They just don't get how hard it is to fix such connection
Since it is not them who will fix it
But the slave named me
They never cared at all

We went to a dentist
And went to a nearby grocery
At the grocery
I saw store selling pins
And I bought 3 pieces
2 pieces of pin with a design of number 22
While the other one is 17
As I go home
To our house I mean
I fixed my guitar case and put my newly bought pins
My guitar case looks good after
I have 9 pins in the case
In was a good design
I'm still planning to cover the whole guitar case with pins
I'm sure that it'll look good

Right now I don't know what to do
I just simply don't know what's next for me
Right now I'm listening to my created Sponge Cola playlist
It is all the Sponge Cola songs
Including songs from their EP
From Palabas: The Romeo and Juliet Experience
From Transit Deluxe
From Sponge Cola
And even some unreleased singles
It is great
Right now is an unreleased song entitle
"She Don't"
It is a nice song
Simple

I'm still trying to think something for this to become longer
I just don't know why am I so addicted to Sponge Cola
I'm not getting tired of listening to their songs
Unlike hits from other artist
After listening for the same song in 2 hour straight
I like to change it already
But in Sponge Cola
I'm listening to it since I was grade 5
Which is around 4 years ago
And I never find it it awful
It is still in harmony
Way too good
I even asked my friends and relatives to listen to them
And they also found them good
Even my girlfriend
She's a listener of foreign songs
But she chose a Sponge Cola song for us
She enjoyed it too much
My cousins
They like religious songs
After hearing Sponge Cola songs
They also found it good

Well I think I don't have anything left for this one
Thanks for reading

"I let myself to drown."

---- Sponge Cola ( She Don't )

--marc22o8eliyha

22

2009-01-22T20:58:00.002+08:00

"Halika ka.
Iyong lunurin ang problema't kalimutan.
May tanong pa ba?
'Di na kailangang magisip pagkat bughaw ang ating langit."
These are the 1st 4 lines of the 1st verse of the song 22
Made by Sponge Cola
It was asking for the listener's trust
And leave behind those bad memories
That is to be replaced by new and exciting ones

22
A very special number in my life
It is not a date that is connected to my love life
It is not a date of something memorable
It is not a date that lived in infamy
But it is a date for myself to serve myself
Aside from I'm just using myself for my own good
And let him be the one to suffer all my deeds
Such an imbalance for both of us
22 has been my number since around grade 6
The first number that caught my attention was 25
I didn't know why did I like that
But I played with it
'Till I realized that 22 is much better

"Malapit na akong matunaw.
Puso ko't damdamin ay sumisigaw."
There are other numbers that I like
Including my special 8
Funny reasoned 4
Semi-special numbers 17,14 and 29
And another special 13
4 is the only favorite number for personal reason
While the others is because my an aspect of my life
Having many numbers is sometimes difficult
You'll never know what you will prioritize
And sometimes
Feeling jealous or some kind when you saw it to others
But if you have many of those
It simply means you treasure something due to it
And it means to me that you are treasuring even a part of your short life

"Ito na ang sandali.
Asahan mong makikinig ng walang maliw.
'Di na kailangan pang itago ang nadarama't magduda.
Matagal ka nang naiinip diba?"
Yeah you are right
Today is my day
My day in the 2009th year
And I am very happy today
Aside from receiving presents including today
I received 3 pins from my 3 former classmates
I got to play Need For Speed: Undercover and Naruto Shippuden: Narutimate Accel 2
In NFS
I've used Mitsubishi Lancer Evolution IX
I won't against my friend
I'm not sure if it is Bryan or Daryl
It was fun
We played a Sprint mode
While in Naruto
I've used my personal favorite
'Akasuna No Sasori'
Or simply 'Sasori of the Red Sands'
He's a hell of a character
Not as popular as Naruto
Not as handsome as Sasuke
Not as fast as Rock Lee
Not as powerful but Gaara
Not as senseful like Neji
Not as wise as Shikamaru
But simply everything like himself
He has his own identity
I lost the match
But before they go home
We played Tekken 5
It was 0-13 in favor of me
I was using Lee Chaolan and Hwoarang
They are using Devil Jin, Bruce, Steve, Hwoarang and Yoshimitsu
They can never get up against my combo for the both players

"Dahil ako'y nasasabik sa muli mong pagdampi sa aking labi.
Pagkat ngayo'y hinahanap-hanap parin,
Ang iyong tamis,
Sa tuwi't-tuwina."
It was my most memorable birthday
Since it was my 1st birthday to be with my girlfriend
It was fun
We had a time of our lives
And we simply wanna stop the movements of the clock's time
I guess I've told everything about today
Thanks for reading
Hope to see you again

"Life is just not fair at all."

---- Sponge Cola ( Cigarette )

--marc22o8eliyha

Up And Down

2009-01-21T14:34:00.002+08:00

Living was such a never easier way
But death was a hell
Well just don't mind those
It just came to my mind as I started this one
Nothing special
And it was unintentional

I was bored during the 2nd day before this
Or was I never be able to fulfill my time?
It was always boring
Not busy
But maybe
Busy because bored
Seems like it was nonsense
So as I
Did you find me nonsense?
If yes
Good
If not
Maybe you have a problem
But I would like to hear your suggestions
Just put some comments
Thanks

I'm doing nothing that's why I'm making this
Tomorrow was our last day of exam
Last day of inhumane torture while we are breathing
Such a suicide for everyone of us
But I don't mind it all
Even though I need to have a good grades for a reason
But I never liked studying
I remember around 9 years ago
While I was in kindergarten stage 1
I asked my parents to cancel my Chinese lesson
They said that it was required for our level
And now
I'm turning 3rd year high school in just a few months from now
Yet
I just remembered that I said that to my parents
When I'm sharing my story to someone
And then I said
"Ano ba 'tong kalokohan ko? Bakit 'di ko pa tinigil noon? Tuloy nahirapan ako at pinagtatawanan pa ako ngayon."
What a nonsense field my mind is running at
I also know that my grammar is wrong
Please accept it
I'm just a student
Not a dictionary nor a grammar book
But even those things get some mistakes also
Well, there's just no perfect thing in this whole world

Honestly
I don't know what to write in this entry
I just right what is passing by my mind
Guess you are thinking what are the connections of my stories
The only connection is they happened in my life even just once
And with that fact
I can't throw them away
It is me
That is me
This is my world
I just can't turn around and forget everything I've done
If that time comes
Then I prooved to myself that I'm just using myself for my own good
Pity him
Just being used by someone

I was about to study right now
But I was bored
So I wrote this
I was playing my guitar before this
Playing hits by Sandwich
I watched their gig on a television show
And I realize that I like to hear them again
So this is what I'm doing
Playing them 5 albums
Including singles form other albums
In Case Of Fire from 5 On The Floor is in the hot seat right now
I don't like foreign songs at all
Just very few of them
I don't know the reason
But one thing is certain
I like OPM music
'Cause I like it
Not because I'm a Filipino
I like the meanings
The hymms
The tempo
The combination and timing of instruments
Their just simply great

Anymore for me to say?
Don't worry
Still thinking here
Just wanted to share this thing
Tomorrow is my day
So there's a very big possiblity that I won't be posting anything in here
There will be some friends going to be present at my crib
Including The Uy brothers
My former classmate named Franklin
My cousing Eirene
And my girl Ria
I guess it will be my greatest one
'Cause I'm sharing that day with someone very special
No
Not special actually
She's just my life
Just take a look on Take Note of Me
If you like to that I'm a stupid hopeless romantic guy
Go ahead
I won't try to stop you
It's your decision
Your idea
I've got nothing to say to you
Just take care of karma
Just kidding
Too boastful am I
Right

Well I'm getting nonsense already
Gotta go
Check back for more updates

"Don't believe, everything, everything you see. Don't believe, everything, everything you feel."

---- Sandwich ( In Case Of Fire )

--marc22o8eliyha

Assassination Of Ignorance

2009-01-19T20:44:00.003+08:00

It was a fairly hard day today
Doing unusual things that I never do during ordinary days
There was a little bit nice experience to be share of
If you are bored
Or just curious of my day
You are very much welcome and appreciated
Or if not
Thanks for reading this introduction

Today's somehow alike to other mornings
Trying to get up of from bed
And returning after a few seconds
Nothing special
There's only one slightly unusual thing I've done this mornin'
I taken a picture of mine
Even though i covered my face with the camera I've used
My left eye was still in sight
It was somehow a nice shot
It was a command
That's a reason why I've done it
Someone asked me to do it
I think you already know who SHE is

I arrived at school
Not exactly on time
But before the cut-off time for tardy students
Just as usual
We talked for a while just before the flag ceremony started
Then SHE came
And talked to her even for a while
As we go to our room for the examination
We studied Biology
Thinking it was a difficult one for us
Except for Ria
She's a Biology Queen
I mean
A Biology Quiz Bee Contestant
She was 3rd place in the whole division i think
In fact
She was exempted for Biology's 2nd quarter exam
Lucky her
How I envy her
Anyway
We just studied and studied
'Till the exam cam
It was English
Even though I didn't study enough for that
It was a little bit good
Since it was more of analysis
Just kept thinking
That it was not an exam
So I should not be pressured nor be confused due to the situation
Just enjoy shading the squares like a kindergarten student
Just shade, shade, shade and shade the whole thing
So as the Biology
Even though there is a twist of Mathematics due to the FOIL method
It was still fine
Computer
The 3rd subject for today
Was a hell
Or less I think
We asked to code too many things
'Causing my hand to fell pain due to pressured writing
It also made my head ache

As I go home
I just took of my shoes
And attacked the bed
Obviously, I lose
I took a nap before I eat lunch
I woke up at around 3pm
Still in my school's uniform
And started to eat lunch even though it was already time for an afternoon snack
I ate rich meal having Laing as my main dish
It was good
It never tasted like grass as I expected
I enjoyed it
After eating
I studied Plane Geometry and called Ria
It was not too long 'till I studied Values
Ria and I talked for about 2 hours
She left 'cause she's going to eat noodles
I just don't know what noodles it is
After an hour
We talked again
Enjoying each other's company even we are not able to see each other
'Till now
I just stopped talking to her since I was trying to study
Even I'm making this blog
How confusing am I

Earlier this morning
While inside the room of the 3rd year class
Since we are having our exam there
Gerald received a free C2 from me
Why?
He found my long lost missing Advance Algebra notebook
It was a great treasure for me
Since it was a good reference for me aside from the fact that I don't usually write notes
It was still good to have it back

Thanks for reading
I dunno when will be the next post
Farewell

"Half the time. These simple lines, may not mean a word to you. Keep in mind. That these simple lines, mean all the world to me."

---- Sponge Cola ( Keep The Fire Burning )

--marc22o8eliyha

I Must Have Left Without You. Just When I Thought I Found You.

2009-01-18T09:29:00.002+08:00

Greetings
For about 3 months
I'm back
To share stories
To share mem'ries
To share my life

During the times that I never entered any entry
I felt almost every ups and downs of life
Particularly to the aspect of affection
There were happiness
Guilt
Sadness
Bliss
Excitement
Fear
I think that I almost felt every emotions
I also never knew that there was a side of me
That can do such things to myself
Can do such thing I thought I can never do
And I was happy for myself in that part

November
One of the most blissful moments of my life
There were many things happened
To start studying and striving for more
'Till enjoying every second of my life limit
I had a good interest in academics in this time
Might be because of Ria's command
I was forced to keep focused on the things around me
I thing I haven't introduced her to you
Henrianne Juanico Dela Cruz
Just a simple girl
Having extraordinary brains
And extraordinary personality
Not like the others that can give you everything
But she's not like also the others
That can love you too much
Of course I admit
I'm a hell of an hopeless-romantic person (ayan mine ah, sikat ka nnmn hahaha)
We went in an anime event
Together with my two other cousins and my sister
My sister was so shocked when she knew that I was courting her
She asked me if when did I started
I answered
"Lam na nila Papa"
Then I laughed
But I answered the truth afterward
20th of October
November is also when she visited our home
It was fun
A very mem'rable experience

December
One of the Most Blissful and Most Miserable one
She answered me by December 8
Around less than 2 month since I started courting her
It first it was way too fine
I was accepted by her parents
Same as her
The only problem is
My parents somehow had a hard time
In my transition of generaton
I was entering a world of the next age
I understand them
But that made a major problem
She wanted to let go
I never wanted at first
But she insisted and said that I must fix my problem with my parents
So after that incident
I confronted them immediately
Hour after
We were fixed again
Even though there might be scratches left
Scratches that might be literal or not
But that was not the only time we experienced to be cracked
The major one was when I tried to go
She was out of herself
I was still the one coming back to her arms
At first she never wanted to go back
Since she might be thinking that I might do it again
I can't stop her for thinking about that
It caused her a great damage
There's nothing I can do
But try to fix her again
And Blame myself for breaking her down
It was all my fault
Not her
Time goes by
We still together
But there was slight changes happening between the two of us

January
Slight problem occured
But it can't bring us down
We had our first month
We spend the day a little less time together
Since she was busy studying for a Mathematics' Competition
She's way to smarter than I
Few days after
Problem strikes
She had enough
And wishing me to let go of her
I never wanted but since I know that it is her decision
She'll be happy with that
I'm just setting my mind to be happy for her also
Except the fact that it caused me too much pain
Up to the point that I wanted to fail my grades
I was out of myself for two consecutive day
For the third day
Just like Jesus
She came back
Even though there was pain
I know that it will be healed by time
Now
Everything's going back to normal

Thanks for reading
I'll be back probably on January 22
My birthday

"Fixated."

---- Sponge Cola ( Saturn )

--marc2208eliyha

hold

2008-10-27T17:25:00.002+08:00

For some personal reason
I won't be publishing blogs in the next few months
My apologies
But as soon as I wanted to do so
There will be a new one
Again
I extend my apologies

"I've seen Saturn thru a telescope..."

---- Sponge Cola ( Saturn )

--marc22fews

Illusive Thoughts

2008-10-25T18:24:00.004+08:00

The surrounding's dark
Can't barely see a thing
Even though I can see a pole of light
I do not know how to hold it
Neither look at it

The time came
Every eye was focused one me
I can't make unnecessary movements
I just stared back in the light

Ignoring every facade
I walked around
Every step I take
Pausing for a while to think
If there's no one to make fun of me
I can not allow myself to be conquered by anyone

New light poles are showing their brightness
I don't know which one is a bright one
Nor the dark one
All I know at the moment
Their color
Some are blue
Some are red
Some are yellow
Some are green
The rest is black
But one color withstand against the others
It is only of its kind
A white pole

Mesmerized due to its facade
I try to go nearby
As I step
The poles are starting to disappear
But as I leave their place
They shined again
I can not get their logic for doing such things
But I guessed they are just playing with me

Another white light was spotted
Still
I'm confused
Why is there only two
Unlike the other
Especially the black one's

I try to hold every light poles
At last
They let me hold them
I can now hold every color I like
But another mystery has arise
Why does the black light change it's colour when I hold them?

I stayed for a while
They seemed to like me in a way
I played with them
They gave me more brightness
I stared at every pole
Hoping that these lights can be with me forever

As I interact with each other
The blue lights became darker than itself
The red ones became pink
The yellow is changing into gold
The green is also changing into a gray one
The group of black remained black
So as the two poles of white lights

Now I'm starting to lose my breathe
Asking help to every pole
They can't seem to move
I tried to hold them
Surprisingly
I can hold the light poles like an ordinary pole
I hold every color
Except for the black poles
And two white poles

I was shocked when the thing I feared most
Happened
Every pole I can hold
Was now like just an ordinary light pole
They even changed their facades
The dark blue group has became darker
Some of the dark blue members became black
The pink returned to its original color
The gold maintained its colour
But it became brighter
The gray poles disappeared
The black remained black
The white poles became brighter

For that incident
I already ignored every light poles
I went straight to the white poles
I try to hold them with my bare hands
They let me hold them
Like the others
They are like a real pole
So by their sides
Is where I stayed for awhile

The time continues to flow
So is my life
Now
I'm gasping for air
Very difficult to breath
Can't live for much longer
As for the two poles
I hold them tighter
Symptom that I need their presence
As I tried to close my grip while holding them
The pole at my right started to become brighter than before
I was relieved
I believed that this one won't leave me
So I let go to the pole at my left
And started to hold the pole at my right
It became brighter
I smiled slightly
I trusted the pole

Time pass by
My time is coming near
The pole I'm holding continues to shine even more
But something happened
While I was holding it
It let go of me
Just like the others
It became an ordinary light pole
After a little while
It disappear

Now my life's coming to an end
I lay down on the floor
And look to my right then left
At my left
The white pole was still there
Its brightness was never change since the start
Before I lose my breath
I crawled to hold the white pole that seemed to wait for me
But it never came in time
Before I reached the pole
My body became to stiff that felt like
I have Rigor Mortis
I let myself drown
And be kissed by death
As I stared the white light pole
My eyes are starting to close
I'm still looking at the white pole
It's getting harder and harder to breath
Until my eyes was almost closed
The white pole shined too much
Too much that it cost me blindness
All I can see is a white light
Then my eyes shut
...
When I opened my eyes
I realized I was in a room
An empty room
I was thinking if I'm already gone
Until she called my name
I looked around
But only find myself alone
I shouted if who she is
"It doesn't matter who am I, what's important is that your safe"
She answered
I was confused
What's happening?
Then I walk
Walked walked walked and walked
'Till I suddenly stopped
She spoke again
"Now you are free"
Free from what?
What the hell is this?
Then a feather fell in my head
I get it
Hold it
Take a deep breath
And closed my eyes

I wake up
I was confused
Everyone's looking at me
Sobbing
I realized
I was in a hospital
Then I looked at my hand
The feather is still there

"Don't ever be afraid. Life has ways of keeping you safe"

---- Sponge Cola (In Another Life)

[ria17]

--marc22fews

Sponge Cola

2008-09-21T15:21:00.012+08:00

A special entry
This is a music review
About Sponge Cola's 3rd album
Entitled: "Sponge Cola"
I bought my copy
At SM City Sta. Mesa
Yesterday, September 20
It was 320Php

The Album contained 14 tracks
I'll enumerate it in order
-Ayt! (T)
-Puso (T)
-Step Back (E)
-'Di Na Mababawi (T)
-In Another Life (E)
-G.K.T. (T)
-A Tear (E)
-All The Time (E)
-Wala Kang Katulad (T)
-Makapiling Ka (T)
-Lights (E)
-Meteor Shower (T)
-Saturn (E)
-Keep The Fire Burning (E)
(Legend:
T- Contains Tagalog Lyrics
E- Contains English Lyrics)

All are new and original
Except "A Tear" and "Saturn"
The 2 tracks are included in their Indie Album
But of course
They made some new "twist" in the song

-Ayt!-
The song talks about
A person in morning
That's the literal meaning
But the deeper meaning
In my interpretations
They are like a friend
That saying:
"There's hope waiting for you my friend"
The combo of instruments is also great
The part
"Konting bilis, kami ay naghihintay"
It is a great LSS for your mind
4 of 5 stars

-Puso-
Theme of the UAAP '08
Also like from a friend
Never quit
Very simple
The part "Dehado kung dehado"
Was very catchy
4 of 5 stars
-Step Back-
My personal favorite
The sound wasn't too loud or "metal"
A little bit sentimental (as they call it)
There is a part when
The only sound you can hear
Is the vocalist's voice
It was a great effect and the meaning of the phrase
Is too great
5 of 5 stars

-'Di Na Mababawi-
A silent song
The meaning is not too hard to figure out
I think an acoustic guitar is used in this track
Simple
Somehow
I can relate to it
4 of 5 stars

-In Another Life-
Just like Chris' songs
Jillian and Myself In You
This talks about a love one
The story is like
"My life is sacrificed even for you"
That's just my interpretation
4 of 5 stars

-G.K.T.-
Gising-Kain-Tulog
A song saying that GKT
Is a secret
That has an advantage and disadvantage
Together with Jomal Limao
If I'm not mistaken
He's from Kamikazee
But I'm not sure
The song's great
4 of 5 stars

-A Tear-
Aside from the better sound quality
You'll see the difference
To be honest
I like the older version
The older contains more rock actions
But the thing that I like most in the new version
They used
"Screamo"?
I'm not sure about the term
But it's a shout
It is located after the part:
"Why won't we come back"
It's great
Very great
5 of 5 stars

-All The Time-
They used a filter for the voice
That's why it is somehow difficult
To understand
It's the shortest in the album
3 of 5 stars

-Wala Kang Katulad-
This song
I don't if it is only me
But I think I've already heard the tune
The meaning's great
4 of 5 stars

-Makapiling Ka-
This song is a little bit sentimental
I think this song is humble
The one saying this seems eager
To be with the one he/she loves
Too much devotion
But the song is great
5 of 5 stars

-Lights-
A track that says
At the end of the darkness, there's light
The lyrics is positive
It give light
I mean
Hope for the listener
5 of 5 stars

-Meteor Shower-
The title's written in English
But the song is Tagalog
So tricky
They used the Meteor Shower
As a substitute for the exact meaning of the song
Still
It is tricky
They put descriptions about Meteor Shower
Which gives the lyrics a great meaning
4 of 5 stars

-Saturn-
They rearranged the song
Making the 2 verses
One after the other
And they used hi-hats too much
It's great
I liked it like the older version
They didn't used guitars at first
Or if they used it and I didn't realize it
Too minimal
LSS
5 of 5 stars

-Keep The Fire Burning-
The last song
And the longest one
The song says about
There's no such thing as end
They also used piano
As a major instrument used in the song
The melody is good
4 of 5 stars

That's the summary of the tracks
Now let's get to the album's physical characteristics
The case isn't too good
Since they only used
I think a cardboard
Instead of using CD Hard Plastic Case
Just like other album's
The album's front
Is simple
Sponge Cola
Represents the artist and the album's title
Is written in the center
And there's a big red circle
With 3 white spots scattered around it
In my interpretation
The circle represents the Saturn
And the white spot represents lights
And lights that will represent
Never ending fire
The back cover is an art
There's an image of the members
But stenciled
In the upper-right corner
There is the location of the song listing
And it has a very small font
The inside part
There's a large folded paper
Contains Pictures, Song Title and line from the song
The CD is simple also
It just like the circle in the cover
With "SC" in the lower-left portion
The only thing that I didn't like in this
Unlike the 1st 2 albums
They didn't include a sheet of paper
Containing the lyrics
So it is too difficult to sing along

I think I already said everything
Thanks for reading
Have a nice day

"Still I'm drawn to the flame and the feelings remain but the fire for the night, now a long lost memory."

---- Sponge Cola ( Step Back)

--marc22fews

Momentary Bliss

2008-09-19T17:29:00.002+08:00

I've been a li'l bit busy
So I didn't able to enter these past weeks

To summarize the story
It's been fun
And a little bit great
But still
There's some negative
And that won't be taken off in our lives

Last September 6
We went in Metrowalk
It was fun
We celebrated my dad's day
The females used the "karaoke"
As for the males
The billiard table is available
At first
Me and my dad are playing
But as the visitors came
We give them a chance to play
But they didn't give us a chance anymore
Good thing I brought my guitar
So me and my cousin had a jam
We jammed Emily by Paraluman
Since it's the only song we are very familiar with
And the celebration ended
We had a picture taking session
While we are having some pictures
Eirene immediately said
"Nsan, diba si Raimund yon?"
And then I looked to the man
I was starstruck
It was Raimund Marasigan
1/4 of the Eraserheads
Member of different bands
And lead vocalist of Sandwich
I was going to ask him for a picture
But it was too late
He immediately go away
I felt disappointed
It was a chance of a lifetime
So we went to the parking lot
While walking
2 men overtaken me
And they were talking
I looked at them
They are Diego Castillo and Mike Dizon of Sandwich
I felt happy
I asked them immediately for a picture
And that picture is now posted at my friendster account
http://www.friendster.com/angpaboritongtaonihudas
Just go to the Public Photo Album and search
Back to the story
It was really great
I'm overwhelmed

Just to share to you
I already got my PS2
And there was no damage at all
So I did not pay anything
Even a single cent
So I continued playing
The games I'm playing

Last September 17
We had a celebration
In relation to the Science Month
As a Sophomore student
I'm a part of
"My DNA Works" Exhibit
Our classroom was decorated
We prepared different activities
In one activity
We used some worms
And everyone enjoyed it

To be honest
I don't know
If I forgot something
My apologies

Yesterday we went to Sta. Mesa, Manila
We bought a new guitar
It's a Lele Lumanog
Like my classmate's guitar
But of course
With a different design
I chose a black one
It was really great
Unfortunately
It was not the one I bought
It has a damage
So I chose another one
And it came out to be
A red turtle-back acoustic guitar w/ pick-up
It was awesome
I tried it to attached at our amplifier
And it sounds great
I also bought yesterday
Sponge Cola's new and 3rd album
Entitled: "Sponge Cola"
More details to be revealed next entry

Thanks for reading
Hope you'll be back for more
Wait
I remember one important thing
Our distribution of cards
It was held last September 13
My grades was fine
The lowest was 82
And it was Filipino
I also got grade below 85
In Social Science, Biology and Physics
To be boastful
My highest grade is in Advance Algebra
I told you I'll be boastful
I'm the highest in the class
It was 94

I think I did not forgot anything already
Again
Thanks
'Till my next entry

"There's a Fruitcake for everyone."

---- Eraserheads (Fruitcake)

--marc22fews

Strings and Boxes

2008-08-28T19:19:00.007+08:00

This week
I was not busy
In response to academic reasons
There were less class that I attended
But It's not that I cut some classes
There was a reason
There is an upcoming culminating activity
And we have to be ready for it

Monday
We had no classes
I slept majority of the day
About 6pm
We went to a nearby supermarket
And I bought a new PS2 game
It is Grand Theft Auto: Vice City
I know
It's not new
But not too old
It was released about year 2002
I have this game before
But in my computer
Unfortunately
It was destroyed
And because I really wanted to play the game again
I bought another one
But now it is for my PS2
As I reached our house's main door
I immediately rushed to where
My PS2 is located
And start playing it
As I start the game
I remembered the days
That I first played it
When I don't care about
The human lives in the game
About the wrecking of cars
And usage of weapons
All I know is
Use every function of the game
As far as it can give
In where
I'll just stop doing the very same thing
Unless it is already impossible to do so

The most busy day I had
Was Tuesday
We had classes the whole day

Wednesday
NCAE for 4th year students
There was no classes
Except for us
We were asked to report at our school
By 12 in the afternoon
I know that there will be less classes
So I decided to bring my guitar
And while in school
I've played the same old hits that I know
But that day was out principal's b-day
And someone wants us to have a gift
But we don't have any funds
So our class president decided
To play a song for our principal
The chosen song was
Crazy For You
At first
I laughed
Because I thought it was a joke
But she was serious in what she said
I was a little bit shocked
Because the lyrics was not good
But still
She wanted that song
And we practiced it until dismissal

Here is Thursday
I know that there will be no classes
I mean
No teachers will have a discussion
So I decided to bring my guitar again
And
It's the day of presentation
And the day started in our classroom
We are decorating our room
For the upcoming activity
In relation to the
"Linggo ng Wika"
But our presentation
Was canceled
I don't know the exact reason
But still
The day continued
With us
Playing the guitar
As a result
My fingers are aching

Friday
The culminating activity
I brought 5 gallons of water as a share
It was way too heavy
While the program was going on
I was left on the room
For the reason
I'm supervising everything
That is about the decorations
And while I'm doing nothing
I borrowed a guitar from a former classmate
Unfortunately
I broke it
I accidentally broke a string
So i have to replace it
And the whole day was fun
My classmates are playing
Tekken 5: Dark Resurrection
And I tried to play
And it was fun
The day ended with fun of course

That's all for today
Wait
I forgot something
Few days ago
I read my entries
And found some typographical errors
So my apologies
I don't know if I still have some typo-errors
And the worst
The wrong usage of grammar
Again
My apologies
Thanks for reading

(**NOTE**:I posted this entry on August 29, 2008 [Friday])

"You can't avoid the complications when there's no reason at all."

---- Eraserheads ( Waiting For The Bus )

--marc22fews

High School Life

2008-08-23T08:59:00.004+08:00

Last Saturday
My friends and I
Went to the mall
And of course
I'll share it to you
Me, Gerald, Ian and Colleen
Went to SM Megamall
We went there
Just for fun
Nothing more
At first
We looked for the time of the show
But we still have about 2 hours
Before the show starts
So we decided
To walk around the mall for a while
We played a while in the Timezone
And we went to the supermarket
To buy some stuffs
For the show
Then we went to the cinema
We watched
The Mummy: Tomb of The Dragon Emperor
It was great
The story was somehow unique
And the effects was too great
In the cinema
The arrangement of seats was
Colleen, Ian, Me and Gerald
And because of that
There were like
2 different groups
Colleen and Ian are talking by themselves
While me and Gerald has also our own
And that did last long
Even outside the cinema
Even when we go to
Our separate ways before
We go home

Our teachers shared to us
Our scores in our
Periodical exams
My outputs were somehow great
Fortunately
I got the highest score
In Advance Algebra
And in Physics
I didn't expect those scores
Especially in Physics
But even though they were the highest
It wasn't high enough
And it wasn't satisfactory
But I think
It is better to have it
Than to have a failing score
The lowest I got
Is in my elective subject
Which is Environmental Science
I've got
A point higher than the lowest
Possible passing score
It was too bad

Yesterday
Our section had a pet
Named Bubu
(I'm not sure if the name of the spelling is correct)
It is a beetle
At first
I didn't liked it
But when I first let it walk on my palm
It was great after all
Its shell was hard
And its legs are it pointed
But not pointed that it can
Give you a wound
At the middle of the day
When I was playing Sudoku
My classmates laughed at me
And I said why
Then they said
Look at your back
When I try to look at it
Bubu was behind me
And I started to laugh
Then they took it off
Then they've done it to another classmate
And when she noticed that we are laughing at her
She also said why
And we said that
Bubu was at her back
She was shocked at shouted
We were laughing too much
One time
Another classmate was having a deal
With another classmate
She will take off an rope that is
Tied around her wrist
We are joking her that
Bubu was around her
And she freaked out
She was too afraid
And she even cried
While we
We are laughing

Right now
I'm waiting for Gerald to be online
We are going to make our SIM
(Strategic Intervention Material)
We are planing to have Cell
As our Least Mastered Learning Competency
(I'm not sure of the Competency)
And I tried to put the plug-in
In my Yahoo! Messenger
I've chose Yahoo! Music
And It's great
Try to give it a shot

Culminating activities
Are one of the most fun events
In our school
Yesterday
We are talking about it
And we had an idea
Just an idea
We or should I say "I"
Not sure about it
We are planning to be band
And play song/s in one activity
And we wanted to be different from the others
We are planning to play
Christian songs
But we are still unsure
We prioritize our studies
That's why we can't move even further

Thanks for reading
'Till my next entry

"Explain to me, what has become of us?"

---- Urbandub ( Fight is Over )

--marc22fews

OPM World

2008-08-16T09:58:00.002+08:00

I've realized something
My blog title is
With music present in my mind
But I don't have an entry for music
That's why I created this one

First of all
I didn't know
What music contains
That made me like it
But maybe
Its lyrics
Its melody
I don't know
But I think
It's really the lyrics
I wanted the lyrics too much
It really can express my feeling
No matter what I feel
There's a music that is complimentary to it

A want to concentrate on Sponge Cola and Eraserheads
Let's have sponge cola first
The first time I hear Sponge Cola
I think that
What kind of name is that?
Is it derived from Spongebob Squarepants?
I first heard that from Francis M.
He is always plugging Sponge Cola
That's why I became curious of them
Then one day
My friend lend me
His copy of Sponge Cola's
Palabas: The Romeo and Juliet Experience
So I listen to it
While listening to it
I think of
What's good in this album?
There's no great song in this album
But what i didn't realize back there
I always listen to it
Until one day
Before I return it to my friend
I copied it to my PC
For the reason
We have a CD-burning business
And then I returned it
One day
I saw a life performance of Sponge Cola at Myx
And I said
What song is this?
This is not included in the album
This is too great
So I try to remember the title
And I search at my PC
I was shocked
The song was already in the album
It means that
I just ignored it
So I listened to the whole album again
That's when I realized
The beauty of that artist
The songs was too great
And that's the start of
Being a fan of Sponge Cola
But unfortunately
I only saw 1 of their gig
And it's not their major gig
They are just guest
It is in Hataw, Hanep, Hero 2007
While we were walking around
Together with my sister Joyce
Cousins Ria and Eirene
Eirene said that
Wow, the song is Sponge Cola
Then I said
Yeah, too lucky for us
Then I remembered one thing
And I immediately asked my sister
(For because she already attented that particular event)
If there are local bands performing
Then she said yes
I realized that
That it is a live performance
Because the sound of the Cymbals are different
So I rushed to the center stage
And I was surprised
Sponge Cola was really there
I was too happy
They performed three songs
Bitiw
Tuloy Parin
And Tuliro
I was really happy that night
Now
Because of my addiction
I collected 53 of their songs
But I think some of copies I have
Has a multiple copy
Or double copy
But one thing is certain
I like that artist
I have their debut album
Palabas: The Romeo and Juliet Experience
And their sophomore one
Transit Deluxe
And their EP
Which contains five songs
But not an original copy
I just borrowed it from my friend

I also like
Pupil
Eraserheads
And Sandwich
I like the meaning of their songs
And the tunes of course
I like their albums
I don't have to mention it
It is at the list
At the left side of this page

Now
I can play some instruments
I can play
The guitar
And basic drum beats
Sometimes I play my favorite songs
Like Tuliro
Betamax
Monobloc
Pare Ko
And some other more
I think
I already said this words
My apologies
It's little bit late now at my time
So my mind is not working
Effectively as expected
I don't know what to write next
I don't even know
There might be some typographical errors
And wrong usage of grammar
Again
My apologies

I'll have to end this now
I don't know what am writing
I might write things that I must not write
Thanks for reading

"I closed my eyes to count to ten. I looked around to find you, but I lost you."

---- Wake Up Your Seatmate ( Hide and Seek )

--marc22fews

Living Hell?!

2008-08-15T12:08:00.002+08:00

We had our exam
That's the reason
Why I'm slightly busy

Our Algebra exam
Wasn't too hard at all
Of course
There is also some items that
Wasn't hard as I expected
As of now
Biology is my problem
Unfortunately
I think my answers
In the last part of the exam
Out of 20 items
My only sure answer
Is around 8 items only
Too bad for me

To be honest
I can't think
Want to put in this entry
But I don't wanna end this now
I don't wanna have an entry
That is too short

Right now
I wanted to have a thing to do
I wanted to have a band
Even thought this dream
Was way back
Since I'm a 5th grader
But of course
As time goes by
There's change
And I'm changing
I always now that
There might be a time
When I dream of becoming a doctor
A painter
A principal
A president
I dunno
But I thing won't change in me
My eagerness to fulfill the things
That I must fulfill

Earlier this morning
I asked my classmate Bea
To come with me
In our registrars office
While on our way to the office
She asked me
What is that for?
I told her
I gonna get my grades
Because were going to migrate at Hong Kong
She suddenly stopped for a while
And asked me
Is it true?
I said yes
She continues to ask me the same question
Over and over a hundred times
I looked at her eyes
And it is teary
I realized that
She doesn't want me to go
When we reached the registrar's office
I saw the registrar at the office's door
So I approached her immediately
Bea was left outside the office
For the reason
Students with particular business
Is allowed inside
So I looked at Bea to say
Wait for a minute
When I looked at her
Her tear dropped
At that moment
I felt a mixed emotion
Happy
Surprised
Lonely
Guilty
So I told her
Bea, It is a joke
And then I entered the office
After the transaction is finished
She was standing at the very same place
Where I left her
On her right side
Ria and Gerald was present
But they didn't got my attention
I comforted Bea because she was crying
I told her again that
The migration thing is just a joke
And she became happy again
When we reached our classroom
Bea said that
We could use that joke again
And so we did
We used the joke on Christine
Same as Bea
She had teary eyes
When we reveal that it was a joke
She started to laugh and chased me
So I started to rest at my chair
Without knowing
Another classmate cries because of the joke
It wasn't me who told it to her
Gerald said the joke on Ria
And she began to cry

After those incidents
I realized a small thing
Somebody is still
Caring?
Loving?
Thinking?
Wanted me to be with them?
I dunno the right term
But I was really happy

I've brought my guitar today
While we were waiting for the next exam
I, Gelli and Ria played the guitar
We played "Magbalik"
Then Bea and Gerald was singing
When we came to the chorus part
Majority of our classmate starting singing
When suddenly
Mr. Ungos came to our room
And he confiscated my guitar
But I was not at nervous state
I know that I can get my guitar back
Before I go home of course
When I was about to get it
He asked me
What happened?
Why did you do it?
I can't say a thing
For about 2 minutes
I suddenly said
Sir because I can use it because it is a break time
And he said
It's ok to use it
But you're making too much noise
At the end I just apologized
And he explained to me
That if he didn't scold
Other teachers will scold me
And worse thing might happen

This is the last of it
I think this blog isn't that good
It only had a detailed summary of my day today
I just want to thank you for reading

"It took me 25 years just to understand"

---- Eraserheads ( Scorpio Rising )

--marc22fews

Pagiging Maka-Bansa

2008-08-09T11:14:00.004+08:00

Ang isang ito ay espesyal
Gagamitin ko dito ang linguaheng
Aking nakagisnan
Ang wikang Pilipino
Sa ngayon
Bawal gumamit ng mga salitang dayuhan
Umpisahan na natin

Isa akong mambabasa
Ng mga librong likha
Ni G. Bob Ong
At sa pagbabasa nito
Mas naintindihan ko maigi ang buhay
Dito nabasa ko ang iba't-ibang mundo ng tao
May para sa mga mag-aaral
Para sa sakit ng lipunan
Sa relihiyon
Ang ugali ng tao
Mga istilo ng pagsusulat
At buhay-mahirap
At dahil doon
Susubukan kong isa-isahin ang aking mga
Komento ukol sa mga paksang iyon

Sa pag-aaral
Naisip ko na
Talagang nakaktuwang nakakaawa ang mga estudyante
Nakakatuwa sa aspektong
Parang puro kasiyahan lang sila
Nakakatuwa silang nakitang natutuwa
Lalo na kung nagsasaya sila
At natututo sa pag-aaral
Sa kabilang banda
Nakakaawa sa aspektong
May mga gurong umaabuso sa kanila
'Yung tipong
isang pirasong lapis na lang
Ay gagawin pang proyekto
At sa mga gawain na dapat sa guro pa
Tulad ng pagbabasa
Kung ako ang tatanongin
Oo
Dapat nagbabasa ang estudyante
Subalit ang pagbabasa na iyon ay para lamang
Makasagot kapag nagtanong sa kanila ang kanilang guro
Pero hindi tama para sa akin
Ang pagbabasahin ang estudyante para lamang
Sila na lang magturo sa sarili nila
At hind i ang mga tamad na gurong nagpapabasa na lamang
Pero dahil sa "ABNKKBSNPLAko?!"
Biglang pumasok sa aking isip
Ang maging isang guro
Isang guro na maka-estudyante
Isang gurong pinaglalaban ang karapatan ng estudyante

Sa relihiyon muna tayo
Wala akong gaanong masasabi
Kundi ang isang palaisipan
Totoo ba ang relihiyon?

Ang ugali ng tao
Bawat tao sa mundo ay mayroon kanya-kanyang ugali
Kung minsan ay may nagkakapareho
Pero kahit papaano
Ay may pinagkaiba parin
Pero may isa akong nalaman
Wala sa tao ang kanyang ugali
Kundi nasa tumitingin
Halimbawa?
May isang taong nagsasabi ng kanyang talambuhay
Kung sang ayon ka sa kanya
Matutuwa ka
Mahahabag ka kung ito ay nakakahabag para sa iyo
Subalit kung hindi mo nagustuhan
Sa karaniwang dahilan na
Parang ikaw ang kontrabida sa kanyang kwento
Ang sasabihin mo naman ay
Isa siyang mayabang na walang kayang patunayan
Kundi magyabang
Pero ano ba talaga ang pakay ng taong
Nagsabi ng kanyang talambuhay?
Walang makapagsasabi
Kahit siya
Hindi niya masasabi ang katotohanan

Sa pag-sulat daw nailalabas ang nadarama ng isang tao?
Para sakin
Tama iyon
Bakit?
Ako mismo
Nagawa ko na iyan
Isa din yan sa dahilan ng aking
Pagsulat dito sa pahinang ito
Gusto ko mailabas ang aking naisip
Nararamdaman
At iba pa
Pero bakit may mga sulatin na hindi akma sa bawat situwasyon?
Dahil ang isang sulatin ay may isang eksaktong paksa lamang
May mga diskursong marami ang paksa
Pero hindi ito natutumbok ang dapat matumbok

Buhay mahirap
Dahil salat sa pera?
Hindi lang iyan ang ibig-sabihin ng mahirap
At hindi iyan ang tunay na ibig-sabihin ng salitang iyon
Ang sa tingin kong ibig-ipahayag ng salitang 'yon
Ay ang taong
Kulang sa pagmamahal
Bakit?
Kung wala kang ganon
Halos wala ka nang magagawa sa buhay mo
At ang tanging iisipin mo na lang ay ang sarili mo
Kung mangyayari 'yon
Iba iba na ang magagawa mo
Magagawa mo kahit hindi nadapat
Bakit nila sinasabi ang mahirap ay kulang sa pera?
Sa totoo lang
Walang taong walang pera
Subalit
Hindi lang sila nakokontento sa kung anong meron sila
Lahat ng bagay sa mundo ay may halaga
Edi ang tao ay may halaga din?
Magkakaroon ng halaga ang tao
Kung ituturing mo itong bagay

Ngayon
Bumalik tayo sa sakit ng lipunan
Bakit sakit ng lipunan
Nailagay sa librong
"Balik Baliktad Magbasa ng Libro ang mga Pilipino"
Ang karamihan sa katotohanan ng ating buhay
Mas inuuna pa natin ang dayuhan
Ang iba ay masahol pa
Bukod sa mas binibigyan ng importansya ang dayuhan
Hindi pa siya dito nakontento
Hinihila pa niya pababa
Ang mga kababayan niya
Hindi niya inisip na
Pag hinila niya ang kanyang kababayan
Hinila na din niya ang kanyang sarili
At sa mas nakakahiyang situasyon
Kung ikukumpara sa kanyang hinilang kababayan
Isa pang napansin ko sa libro?
Iba ang laki ng mga salitang
BAKIT
BALIKTAD
PILIPINO
Bakit ko ito sinasabi?
May naisip lang ako
Kaya ba iba ang laki ng tatlong salitang iyon
Ay sa kadahilanang
Nagtatanong ang sumulat ng
BAKIT BALIKTAD ang PILIPINO?

Ito na ang wakas ng aking liham
Maraming salamat sa pagbabasa
Kung may natutunan kayo
Ayos
Kung wala
Ayos lang din
Ang importante
Nakinig kayo sa isang opinyon

"Lahat tayo, nag-gagamitan lang"

--Eraserheads ( Wating )

--marc22fews

This day, These days

2008-07-17T18:14:00.004+08:00

It's been too confusing
Slyness doesn't count anymore
Thinking ability is too dull
To figure it out

One subject
Advance Algebra
We had an exam
I got a score
More than the number of items
I was
Of course happy
For the second exam
I'm the second to the highest
Because I was called 2nd for my paper
But I don't know what is the score of the 1st one

These days
My classmate
Named Gelli
Is always bringing some guitar
And of course
I'm borrowing it
I've been playing hits like
Crazy for you
Tuliro
And Betamax

To be honest
I started this blog last July 17
Quite too long for now
I never insisted myself
To finish a thing
With a deadline of my own
For a very simple reason
Pressured me can't create a quality product

These days
We don't have any teachers
Present in almost majority of the subjects
Especially the last 3 days of this week
They attended a seminar
Including Science, Mathematics and Social Sciences
Last Thursday
We only attended
Oh
I'm sorry
My bad
"They" attended only 2 of our classes
So instead of having 9 subjects that day
We had a holiday
For having only 2
Lucky and fortunate
Especially for us

Yesterday
2 4th year students take over our Biology class
But we talked about not Biology
But about Bible
Everything about Bible
The Pro's and Con's
I don't now what
Or I can't identify the Pro's and Con's
Until now
My mind is still uncomfortable
Because it can't stop
Thinking about that matter

Being a Sophomore student is fun
But sometimes
I can see some aspects
That I saw when I was in elementary
And that's the majority
But as time goes by
I think it's becoming less
But except for one
I can't take her anymore
I won't describe her
Because she's the only one
Having that description
But the greatest clue I can give
Is that
She is a "she"
And not a "he"
I am the only one that she always look at
Look in a negative side
I'm the only one that she always force
That I am wrong
That I'm the worst one
That I'm the bad one
She can't see the others
Let's say that I have all those descriptions
But the worst that I can't take is that
Very simple thing
I know I'm unethical
But I just want to share it to this up to this point
When I have free time
I try to fix broken things in our second home
And what's getting me mad about that?
She forced me to do it?
No
I volunteer in doing those
She asked me to stop?
No
She doesn't care about the positive side of me
She wanted to do it instead of me?
You can wish about it
But that's not the reason
Then what's the reason?
Very simple
She just told me
That I'm the reason for the broken items
Inside our second home
What in the world is that reasoning is?!
Such a fool man's thinking
(Let me be boastful in this part again)
I think its what you call
"Crab Mentality"
Yes
I tried to fix broken things in our room
And majority of it
I fixed it
And yet she has the guts to say
And the one who's wrecking it?!
What the hell is that!
I just can't take it anymore
Well if your reading this
Then better think twice
Before you use your mouth and talk

Aside from that
I'm enjoying my life at present
And I want to enjoy it more
I just want to fulfill my dreams
I just want to finish what I've started
Oh wait
I remember
In our MAPEH class
We had a personality test
There is a question
"You saw a jar, in what volume will you fill it?"
Choices are:
A)1/4
B)1/2
C)3/4
D)Full
My answer is A
My 1st reason is
Because in desert, you can't have too many water
Because it'll just evaporate
And you'll lose your water
Which you earned too difficult
And our teacher declared the reason
It represents our achievements
So I achieved 1/4 of my achievements
And I think It's correct at my present situation
Because at present
The only dream I have
Aside from becoming a UP student at college
Is to finish my studies at my present school
And I'm trying to be better than myself
And finish it
Wait
Why "better" not "best"?
Because if you beat the best of yourself
It means you achieved your highest point
And you can never improve
While in better
You can always defeat yourself
Improve every time
Take it step by step
And beat your worst enemy
Yourself

Thanks for reading
It's already too long
Hope your not bored reading it
'Till next time
**NOTE: I posted this entry last August 2, 2008

"So now you say, "Your probably mistaken"

----Sponge Cola ( Closure )

--marc22fews

Am I too good?

2008-07-04T20:34:00.004+08:00

These days
No
These weeks
I've been too busy
So my apologies to the one waiting for my new post
Too busy
That even our school year-long project
I can't make it
A journal for English and Physics class
We will write anything about the said subject
In our every meeting
Making it
The English to have 5 entries per week
And 3 per week for Physics
But I think
It's useless
What's the sense of knowing the negative and positive
If you still can't change what you want to change?
Well I'll end this portion
For the reason
I don't want to be the person in our guidance councilor's room
Because of this blog

About last week
Or last 2 weeks
I can't remember the exact date and day
Our local gov't gave us our free footwears
A leather and rubber shoes
Yes
We gain materialistically
But we lose a friend
Because a lesson was on going at the time the shoes were given
We were in a very rush at that moment
To be honest
I really forgot about his presence at that exact moment
So we went down all the way to 1st floor
And get our shoes
About a day after
Our friend already call us "traitors"
For the reason we didn't wait for him
And until now
We aren't at good terms

I want you to know
That about the past 6 hours before i write this entry
There are a lots of things i want to share
But for the unknown reason
I forgot them all

For a while
I want to boast
Now
Let me do it
At our Math classes
Which is Advance Algebra and Plane Geometry
Because of my summer lessons
Obviously last summer
I know already some of the topics
That's why I felt like
I was a little bit above against my classmates
But still I know
There will be an end
And speaking of end
There is something I want to end
I want to forget
And wish I didn't do it
I can't tell the exact thing
So that you'll read my blog very carefully

I've done this mistake
It is already the 2nd time
But it's not as simple as that
This mistake
Is a better mistake compared to the 1st mistake
I know
The persons involved are the wrong persons
Unlike the 1st one
Because of it
The ones that makes me smile before
Now
Can make me smile
Not the same side
But the negative side of me
Because of it
I envy my best friend for it
I didn't know what the hell did I done
I don't like sharing this kinds of stuff
But I can't take myself away from it
I've destroyed everything
And I'm regretting it
Did you get what I mean?
What do you think it is?
No
That's not the correct answer

Before I end this blog
It took me a night
And a day also
It is already the 20th hour since I started it
Because last night
It was already almost the middle of the night
And my dad ask me to stop
And I do so
This morning
I was busy for my assignments
Afternoon's time?
I spent it in my cousin's home
So this is again another free time of my life
But not for long
Because I'm into something again

I forgot to tell it earlier
So now I'm gonna say the main point
Why did I post another blog in no time
Answer?
Very simple
Because of a feeling
A feeling that caused me to think
And that feeling is called
Self-pity

Since elementary
My father brings me to school
And fetches me after class
I was happy
Because my dad has a time for me
Unlike my other classmates
They'll wake up too early
And their parents is either sleeping
Or already on the way to their works
And they'll sleep by the time
That their parents isn't at home yet
At that point of view
I felt very lucky
For treating me like a very special thing

When high school came
The only thing that differs it from my elementary days
Is that my dad didn't fetch me from school
Instead
They hired a service for me
I'm still happy
When 2nd yr came
I already don't have a service
I was not mad
Or saying that my parents doesn't care about me anymore
But
I already saw the thing that differs me from every person I know
They don't want me to go alone in the open crowd
They didn't allow me to have the same route as an ordinary student walks
Instead of that
I was always in a special one that dispatches me at the door of our house
I'm not mad because of the reason
I can't go with my classmates at their way to home
I was happy in the sense that
They wanted me to be safe
But the thing I didn't like is that
They didn't want me to taste a little more dangerous life
I don't want to be a wild one
But I also want to walk to the same route
That an average public school student takes
I didn't want freedom
Because I know that I already have them
But I just want to experience and learn from the said thing
Right now
A part of me wants to be rebel
But I know
It will get me to my worst phase
And at the end
I will still be the loser
I just beat up my self
And I'm just thinking
That there is a reason
Why I have to be a special one against the others

Right now
The only thing at my mind
Is 3 things
Be wise
Be sly
And overtake my dreams
I don't want to have other things that is unnecessary
I wanted to maintain my scholarship
I wanted to fulfill my expectations
I wanted to live my life
I wanted to learn
I wanted to be the better one than myself
Why only better not best!?
Simply because
When you choose to b your best
You can't upgrade from it
Because it is already the superlative one
There is no higher or greater than that one
But with better
I can always improve
I can always be better
I can always defeat the greatest enemy
MYSELF

"I was alone and you were with him. I wanna see my friend."

----Pedicab ( A Stormy Night)

--marc22fews

The Day Of........

2008-06-09T20:44:00.002+08:00

Ok
Let's finish this
Once and for all
I don't wanna make this longer
But for sure
This one's a long one

Last week
I can't remember anything anymore
So let's skip this one

Wait
There's something I remember
I didn't know I remembered it
Last Friday
I went to my dentist
And nothing special happened
Same with Saturday
But not Sunday
And I hate that day
My hamster died unexpectedly
But before I come back home that day
I bought a book
Entitled "Ang Paboritong Libro Ni Hudas"
It is a creation by Bob Ong
The book has 2 stories
The one is like a blog by the writer
And the other one is like a conversations in somewhere
That a person can't go

Tuesday
The start of classes
It's fun
Like a reunion
But somehow sad
Because there are other classmates that were not included
In the section where I am
Wednesday when we had a game at our Values subject
It's fun also
The game doesn't ask me too much
Thursday when I accidentaly
Had no choice but to dance in front of the class
But still, still my fault
That was Geometry class
Friday the 13th
Is Friday the pressure
Too many books
Oh
Wrong line
Too many "white elephant" books
Today
Even it's Saturday
We go to our school
But not exatly a class
There is an event at Rainforest
I was told to join "Pasahang Buko"
But I can't refuse
So i joined

I was supposed to create this blog
Last Monday
But for schedule reasons
I finished it at Saturday
And because I have problems at present
I can't think too great
Maybe
I can't enter any blog entries for 3-7 days
14 days for worse
30 days for worst
I don't know
I can't predict the future

"Maybe you see me I'm always happy, but in my back, I'm a lonely clown."

---- 6cycle Mind ( Clown )

-- marc22fews

why?

2008-05-30T21:34:00.003+08:00

Its about a week
From the last date
I entered my blog
And between those days
Many things happened
And all of them have something in common
And that is
A question
A question that can't be answered
By anyone
And that question
Is
"Why?"

Last Sunday
We went to church
But while we were in that place
One thing has never
Get out of my mind
And that is my hamster, Betty
Before we went away from home
I saw her
Like she's badly injured
Or has a great disease
I went to a animal clinic
And ask if they have some at least an idea
Of what happened to her
But they didn't also know
When I got back home
She already passed away
I was so down at the moment
I was very guilty
Because I felt
That my stupidity killed her
I didn't have enough knowledge to raise her
And because of that
I've wasted a life
Why did that happen?

It was Tuesday
When we go to a mall
For the reason
I need to have another set
Of eyeglasses
So we went to the optical
And checked my eyes
The result said
That my left eye's Astigmatism (Not pretty sure about the spelling)
Had changed into a Near-Sighted one
That means I have to wear glasses
For the rest of my life
But my right eye
Was just the same as before
And that is still an Astigmatism
Why does our eye becomes blur?
It seems like
Its so useless
And impossible

At the same day
I went to Bio Research
And bought another female hamster
And named her "Kelly'
As we were in the way
Going home
There are time that I felt like she's not moving
But when a slightly shake its box
She moves
Why does animals are born?
While some of them are just tortured
And some of them are the reasons for torture

This morning
I cleaned up my hamster's home
And realized that "Kelly" was in a
Life-and-Death situation
She passed at some symptoms
Of the disease "Wet Tail"
The said disease was something to do with
Their intestines and bacterias
So I put her in a separate home
I put some water with Vitamin C on it
And some nuts
I was observing her
For the whole day
When 5pm came
And I noticed that she isn't moving
Even breathing
I touched her
And it proved
That her lifespan ended
I was feeling sad again
And of course guilty
And while I'm observing her
I've researched about Syrian Hamster (A.K.A. Teddy Bear Hamster)
And found out that
A 2 Syrians can't be inside a single cage
Except for some reasons and excuses
And when they are inside 1 cage
They will fight against 1 another
And can cause death
Why does another life has to suffer because of my stupidity?

Well thanks for reading

"I resign all implications, of the war that's imminent. Two lovers in mind. Can we try a conversation? One line we never said. I'm sorry I've tried"

----Sandwich ( Two Lovers )

--marc22fews

Excitement and Happiness

2008-05-24T12:29:00.002+08:00

I didn't enter any blog for the past 3 days
It's because I'm somehow busy those days
Last Wednesday
We celebrated our parents' 19th anniversary
Last Thursday
The "BoBoyZ" reunited
And yesterday
I just played GTA: San Andreas in my PlayStation 2

Wednesday morning
I just logged in my Yahoo! Messenger account
After a while
I started to play Tekken 5
But I was bored
So changed it to GTA: Vice City Stories
At 1st
I was having a great time with it
But after an hour
Th DVD went crazy
Causing the game to hang
So I changed it again
Into GTA: San Andreas
About 12:30 in the afternoon
We went to Robinson's Galleria
While my parents are enjoying
The spa gift certificate I gave
Me and my sister went to National Bookstore
Just to hang out
After that
Our parents already called me
To tell us that they are finish
And we met
Next is to eat
We had our meal at Burgoo
Before we go home
We went to a comfort room
As I was finished
I walked around the stores near it
And saw a pet shop
And there I bought my 1st pair of Teddy Bear Hamsters
I named them Teddy and Betty
After i bought it
We went to the department store
And surprisingly
Teddy went out in their box
My mother was so shocked that she shout
But not too long and too loud
My sister immediately run

Last Thursday
I wake up about 8 am
After I eat
I went to the bathroom to have a bath
And after that
I went to SM Megamall
As I arrived at Dunkin' Donut
There was already Jerome Sy
But Daryl and Bryan Uy was still not around
We wait for 30 minutes
After that 30 minutes
I went to the nearest pay phone
To call them
They said that they'll just go around 12:30
So Jerome and I already walk around the mall
We 1st played at Timezone
But we just spent very small amount of money
When the load depleted
We ate our lunch
At food court
We bought Liempo Boy's Cruncy Liempo (Not sure of the name)
Right after we eat
We went At Club Synergy
While we're wandering
When the Uy bros, called us
We are planing what are we going to do
When we sa the SM Bowling Center
So we enter and ask for the price
The price is enought for us
So we played bowling
We had 2 1/2 games
1st game
I won
On the 2nd game
Jerome Sy won
And on the unfinished set
I won again
After that
We played at the club synergy

Yesterday morning
I cleaned Teddy and Betty's home
And of course
Played with them
After that
I played GTA: San Andreas

That's all for today
Thanks for reading

" You tried in once. You tried it twice. It tasted Better than it did before. You try and try, until you die. But you could coming back for more and you just can't stop.

---- Eraserheads ( Andalusian Dog )

--marc22fews

Into the future

2008-05-20T15:01:00.001+08:00

Yesterday
After I enter my blog
I went to our cousin's house
In their house
Their my other cousin
And we had a little conversation
When at about 6pm
Our aunt put out a plastic
And as we look at it
We were shocked
It was out toy when we were about 4-5 years old
And because of it
We remember the days that we're playing those things
We remember the days that we 're fighting
Because of those toys
And we played with it
While we are playing with it
We treat ourselves as a very young ones
While we are playing
Our aunt gave us sandwiches and drinks
And so
We eat
And after that I go home because my dad said so

This morning
I went to our school for our enrollment
In our school at that time
There is like a reunion of our class
But it also looked like an farewell one
Because there are some of our classmates
That won't be my classmate anymore
Including Louie, Joanna and Colleen
But majority is still my classmate
One of those are Bea and Gerald
At our 2nd year class
I'm gonna be included in the class of Franklin

Right now
I'm feeling somehow
Not normal
It's not because or my abnormal brain
But it feels like
Its very hard for me to do this blog
Unlike the others
I finished them in about 15 minutes
While this one is consuming 1 hour of my lifespan
And still consuming

Let me end this to this point
Thanks for reading

"Is this hollow sinking? Will tears stop their falling? Can I speak the truth if they cut my tongue? One night you wake up, you're screaming with trembling hands. And the frightening part is you don't understand."

----Eraserheads ( Milk and Money )

--marc22fews

Together With Relatives

2008-05-19T15:19:00.002+08:00

Its been a while
Since I last posted my blog
The days that I had missed
Is not that I'm not bored
But because of Typhoon "Cosme"
Our telephone dial tone was lost
So as our internet connection
And it was back just last night
So, here I go again

Last Friday, me, my sister and my cousin, Eirene
Went to Pateros and go to our another cousin's house
After we got there
We went to the school of our cousin, BNAHS at Makati
And witness a stage play
Which includes my cousin, Dan
He plays a role of a very kind datu
But later in the play
The character he was playing
Was assassinated

After the play
That was about 5:30 in the afternoon
We went to their house in Pateros
While walking from from their school
We had a great conversation
And a game
As we arrived to their home
We continued our game
The games was called "sensitivity game"
The game is extra-ordinary
This game uses your eyes
And do the similar things as the other players do
And unlike the other games
This games doesn't required logic
So you don't need your brain in this game

The past days
Since there are no internet connection at my place
The computer is more useless than it looks
Because there is no internet
So I try something in our computer
And that is th Nero Wave Editor
This application can distort music files
It can combine 2 songs
It can make add effects for the song
And it can make the vocals in the song
Into a "Chipmunk" version
Its so cool
But there is some error in our computer
That's why I didn't finish what I was doing
I edited the song Balikbayan Box by Eraserheads
From their album entitled "Sticker Happy"

When I'm not using the computer
I'm using my PlayStation 2
Because I can't also have my guitar
Because the chords is in the net
I played Tekken 5
Just Tekken 5
Not the "Dark Resurrection" version
In the arcade mode
I'm using Hwoarang
That is already in "Warlord" status at the present
And Lee Chaolan
In "Master" status
But I stopped
Because the foes are very difficult
And my fingers are already aching
But my mission for this vacation
When it comes to Tekken 5
Is to make at least 1 character
In "Tekken Lord" status
But its very. very difficult

Again, thanks for reading
Hope you look at my blog often

"Don't even think about it. I don't care anymore. It's not the 1st time. No more excuses. I know it's perfect and it feels good but not this time."

----Sandwich ( Not This Time )

--marc22fews

Reunite The Past, Sway With The Present and Ready The Future

2008-05-16T09:31:00.005+08:00

As my last blog said
I remember the things from my elementary days
And right now
I'm missing it
Yesterday
I called my bestfriend, Jerome Sy
And Bryan and Daryl Uy (A.K.A. "The Uy Bros. or "Uyz")
I organized a day for us to "bond"
Not for us to be a bong paper
But for us to be together again
Its been a year when we last saw each other
But its Jerome Sy
And definitely not the Uy Bros.
Because Uy Bros. are still my schoolmates
And were having a time for everyone of us
We're sharing the same club in our school
So is Maxing Avilla
Well, back to the "bonding day"
Were going to meet at a certain mall
At a certain date
I won't announce what date and mall
Because someone might meet with us also
It's not being selfish to ourselves
But we want to make it too special
That there will only be us

I remember when one time in our classroom
This is already in my high school days
When we think of also going out
And of course, having fun
I remember, we like to watch Speed Racer
I wonder if it will happen
Right now
I'm having a chat conversation with some of my classmates
Including Bea, Gerald, Charlene and Joanna
Moments ago with Louie
But he is already offline
Gerald always read mangas
Not mangoes
But a Japanese cartoon comic
And the title he's reading is Naruto
Charlene is always asking some names
But we all don't know who the hell are they
Oh, Louise just got her messenger online
Joanna is always busy at the moment
And Bea have different names and numbers
At her stat

Later this day
I'm going to Pateros
I'm gonna go to our cousin's house
Then after that
Were going to their school at Makati
To witness their stage play
I don't the title
But I'm expecting too much from it

Right now
I'm imagining what will happen at our bonding day
With my elementary friends
And I'm expecting it
To be a stepping stone for us
To end our friendship
Snd treat each other as brothers

Thanks for reading
And please
Vote at my poll
Located at the left side of this page

"The doorknob smiles at me alone. But will I open the door again?"

----Spongecola ( On The Floor )

--marc22fews

The Past

2008-05-15T09:57:00.003+08:00

Last night
I was playing Ludwig Van Beethoven's "Symphony No.9"
Which was taught to me by Bea
When my mother came and asked me
"Where is the free song book of our keyboard?"
And I didn't know
So she asked me to look for it
And so I did
While I was searching for it
I was shocked
Because 2 of my long lost items were already found
It is the Myx Mag where Hale's Champ and Kamikazee's Jay
Are the covers
And the other one
Is the notebook that I and my friends used when we were at Grade 5
It is a Dragonball-covered notebook
But the notes inside is a very extra-ordinary and special
It is our "edited" lyrics
Because when we liked music
We were at grade 5
We dreamed to have a band
Where Jerome Sy has the guitar
So as me
Bryan Uy handles the bass
And Daryl Uy carries the drumsticks
At first we choose songs we like
Then change the lyrics
Just like Michael V.'s
And the lyrics we make
Were writen in 3 notebooks
The Dragonball-covered
The Jackie Chan Adventures-covered
And the Mandaluyong notbook
But the most lyrics where written at the Dragonball-covered
So that's the most special one
When grade 6 era came
Some things were changed
Like oue dream formation of the band
Jerome Sy still have the guitar
Bryan Uy has the bass
Daryl have the guitars
And I have the drum kit
But still
Until today
Those words were still dreams and wishes
But for now
I think its still impossible to achieve that dream
Because we're all busy in our classes

Right now
I have my Yahoo! Messenger open
And I'm chatting with Gerald and Bea
Gerald likes to join The Digital Pinoy for something
That the said website can offer
While Bea
Likes to have breakfast
Because of their meal, Daing
Eirene immediately turned off her Yahoo! Messenger
That's why we didn't have long conversation
But its ok
I can go to their house anytime

Right now I'm listening to Eraserheads' Circus
This album contains some great hits of Eraserheads
Including With A Smile, Alapaap and Kailan
This album also contains
Their album filler trilogy, called "Punk Zappa"
The Trilogy have different titles
The 1st one is called "Punk Zappa"
The 2nd is "No Royalty Album Filler No.9"
And the 3rd is "Prof. Banlaoi's Transcedental Medication After Every Six Month's"
But also known as "Punk Zappa 3"

Well that's all for now
Thanks for reading

"When you think you find it. Know you find it. Don't forget your heart. Because your soul is burning, time's a-turning. No one stays the same."

----Sandwich ( Butterfly Carnival )

--marc22fews

GPM

2008-05-14T15:43:00.003+08:00

I didn't have my blog yesterday
It means that I didn't have time for it
Yesterday I started my computer
When my sister immediately used it
As for me
I went to our 3rd floor for my ps2
And played Tekken 5........again
I already finished all the characters' stories ( using story mode )
Some epilogues are to serious
Including Julia Chang's, Christie Monteiro's and Devil Jin's
While some are very funny
Like Kuma's, Panda's, Heihachi Mishima's and Marchall Law's
But Ling Xiaoyu's ( I'm very sorry if I misspelled it ) epilogue out-stand
Because her epilogue was the only epilogue that has the same quality
As quality of anime videos
So her epilogue looked like a short anime
Right now I like to play some more
But I also like to have some blog first

Yesterday also
My uncle went on our crib and fixed my guitar
And now I'm enjoying it
So right now
My left-hand fingers are aching because of it
Because my guitar is just not too good
That's why when it is tunned it normal tunning
It's to stretched
But still I played my guitar
I played songs from the newest song book I bought
Which is entitled "Just Music", December 2007 issue
Some songs that I played that I got their chords from the said magazine
Are Sandwich's "Cheese Factor Set To 9" and "Butterfly Carnival"
Cambio's "Pasaway" and Pedicab's "Bleached Streaks"

Last night
While I was playing Tekken 5
I'm listening to my radio at my phone
It is in RX93.1
When I suddenly heard a song
It is sang by a female
I'm not sure but they said she was a Singaporean
The song was too good
When it was playing
I felt like the Earth stopped moving
I really like th song
And I wanted to download it
The only problem is
I don't know the title
That's why I search for it at the net using its lyrics
And I found it
It is entitled "On The Side Of Me" by Corrinne May
And because of that
I felt like I want to play some good-old songs
But not literaly old
but year/s old already
Including Stonefree's "LSS", Silent Sanctuary's "Kismet" and Eraserheads' "Fill Her"
It's really great

I guess its the last of it
Thanks for reading

"Everyone needs a friend to hold when it's cold outside and there's no place to go. Everyone needs a friend to hold. All alone I cried, there was no place to go. I remember when nobody cared, but you."

--Corrinne May ( On The Side Of Me )

--marc22fews

From silent to deaf

2008-05-12T13:26:00.003+08:00

Today I've wake up late
Compared to my usual time in waking up
after I eat
I played my ps2 with Tekken 5 inside it
I've used Roger Jr., Anna Williams and Nina Williams
All in Story Mode
I just wanted to finish the game 100%

These days, I've been listening to Eraserheads' "Cutterpillow"
And I don't know if it is fortunate or unfortunate
But I've been addicted to Eraserheads' "Fill Her"
The song is accompanied by just an acoustic guitar
They just plucked it
And the soft voice of Ely Buendia made the song very................romantic?
I just don't know the right term
But just try to have a copy
Also, its lyrics is very meaningful
Of course, it has something to do with love

Oh, I remember something
This morning, while I'm eating
I watched Naruto Shippuden at Hero
And I found it out that it sucks
Not the series but the dubbing
The Tagalog language and the dubber's voice is not that good to pair the anime
I think it's better if it is in English dubbed
Or in Japanese language with English/Tagalog subtitle
But the anime itself, it's good
But still, I haven't watch the latest episode on the net
In short, I'm not updated

Before I made this blog
I was tunning my guitar
And it's very hard
I think, until now, it's still not tunned
Maybe later this day
Either before or after I go to the dentist
I'll go to my uncle to help me do it
If I can't able to do it today
I'll settle it tomorrow

Starting this blog
I'll try to have some quotes written at the end of each blog
I'm not promising
But just trying
I'll get the quotes probably from some lyrics

Before I end this blog
I want to have some "special thanks"
To Gerald "Gerbene" Emalada
For accepting my referral for the site "The Digital Pinoy"
If you want to join
Or receiver some "special thanks" to this blog
Just click the link at my 3rd blog ( Interest and Tries )
Thanks for reading

"Though I can't see you, I can feel you. I'm so glad you open my door. And when I get near, all my fears disappear. And I won't be alone anymore."

----The Eraserheads (Fill Her)

--marc22fews

Interests and Tries

2008-05-11T10:19:00.004+08:00

Right now
As usual
I'm bored
So there's a reason for my 3rd blog

These days
I've been downloading OPM artist's album
So right now I'm enjoying them
Some of the albums I've downloaded are
Sandwich's S Mark's The Spot
Pupil's Wildlife
Eraserheads' Cutterpillow
And Hopia Mani Popcorn 2
Right now
While making this blog
I'm listening to Cutterpillow
These album contains some of the best hit made by Eraserheads
Including Super Proxy
Overdrive
Huwag Mo Nang Itanong
And Ang Huling El Bimbo
Try to have a copy of this album
You won't regret it

Yesterday
Our friend gave us a new dog
And the dog is a girl (or should I say bitch)
And we name her "Shojo"
The name is like our last dog, "Shogun"
"Shogun' is now under Eirene's care

Before I go
Please check this site and just register
Don't worry, its free and also virus-free
http://www.thedigitalpinoy.com/?ref=28024
See you at the site

--marc22fews

As I enter.......

2008-05-10T10:11:00.005+08:00

As I start this blog
I forgot to introduce myself
Sorry for that
Now let's begin

I'm Marc Elison Libramonte Capco
At present, I've already finished 14 years of my lifespan
My celebration day is January 22 '94
I studied nursery course at Wisdom Grade School
But only lasted for half semester
The other half?
It was at "Puso ni Hesus Playschool"
After that
I was enrolled at Pasig Community School for my kinder years
I've spend 2 years for my kinder years at the same school
Of course, after kinder, was elementary
So I spent and finished it at the very same school
At that school, it was somehow pressuring me
But also fun because of my classmates
As I graduated
I entered the rooms of Pasig City Science High School
And at present
I'm entering my 2nd year at high school
Still at Pasig Science
And I just don't wanna let my scholarship slip away

It's very obvious that I like games and music
It is already shown at the title of my blog
You may see something about me at my 1st blog
My 1st blog?
It's about music and games
Just try to check it out

I spend most of my times
Playing my PlayStation 1 and 2
Using my computer
Playing my guitar
That's when I am home
But when I'm at school
I just take it seriously
So when I'm at home
I won't have to study anymore
Because I already done it at school

What more should I say?

I have 2 phones and 3 simcards
Namely Globe, Sun Cellular and TM
I'm using the same computer as my sister and parents use
And that's why they somewhat kinda mad at me
Why?
Because of my addiction in using computer
(Including IMing, soundtriping and gaming)
I over-used it
Especially the keyoard
Because of me
Some letter of our keyboard is already erased
Including A,S,D,K,L,H,G,N,M,C and some others
they're having a difficult time when their using our computer set because of that
I have 1 Gmail account
3 Yahoo! accounts
1 Imeem account
2 Friendster accounts
And this Blogspot accoung

I like collecting songs
Particularly, OPM Rock and Alternative Rock
Including the music of Eraserheads
Also Sandwich
And Spongecola
And of course, why should I forget Pupil
It's not that I'm just listening to their songs
But I also enjoy other bands and artist
But still, under the genre I like

The reason I made this blog?
It's very simple
I'm bored
That's it
And the reason why I write in it poem-style?
Still very simple
I want to treat it as lyrics
Nothing more and nothing less
But I'm facing the truth
That one day
I'll be sick ang tired to post new blogs
That's no wonder in me
It's always like that
I always start and end things

Ok
This is the last of it
If you are bored
Can't think of doing something
You are always welcome at my blog
Or better
Try to have a blog
It's somehow fun
But still, it cuts your time

--marc22fews

Music and Game

2008-05-09T11:12:00.001+08:00

I believe in 2 things

Music

Game

Without this things, the world is null and dull
Life is nothing when these 2 things didn't exist

Music lets you express yourself in in a very harmonic way
Game lets you control the option you like

In the music industry
There are many genres available
If you're in love, love songs are there
If you're broken-hearted, emotional (A.K.A. Emo) songs are available
Rocker type? Rock songs are also included in the package

I like OPM (Original Pilipino/Pinoy Music)
I like the bands Sponge Cola
The legendary Eraserheads
Pupil where Eraserheads' frontman, Ely Buendia is also the frontman
Sandwich is also great, together with their frontman Raimund Marasigan

While in the gaming environment
MMORPGs are the reigning games of the present time
Especially the game Warcraft (A.K.A. DOTA)
But I personally like Strategy-types
This kind of game, for me, can help you think sharper

Racing-type are also great
It's just I like cars
When I'm playing racing games
I feel like I'm the real driver
Greatest racing games I've played
Are Gran Turismo and Need for Speed
Gran Turismo lets you choose up to many cars
And lets you upgrade it with ever part of the cars
So you'll be able to have ideas of the parts of the cars
While in Need for Speed
They let you upgrade your car
Not just the performance
But also the the visuals for your car
Including carbon spoilers ang roof scoop

Well that's all for this one
Thank's for reading

--marc22fews

Syndicate Blues 5358

The Equality Among Inequalities

Fire Level

In Between Days

The Naturally Infamous Selection

Shape Of The Faded Shadow

Memoirs and Indefinites

Today Is Never An Another Day

Walang Kwentang Mga Bagay

The Dust

Stained Glass

mine :))

When Cigarette's Ash Drops To Your Shoulder

The Number Three

The Hatred

Staring At Nowhere

Silent Screams

Why does every second cotinues to fall?

22

Up And Down

Assassination Of Ignorance

I Must Have Left Without You. Just When I Thought I Found You.

***hold***

Illusive Thoughts

Sponge Cola

Momentary Bliss

Strings and Boxes

High School Life

OPM World

Living Hell?!

Pagiging Maka-Bansa

This day, These days

Am I too good?

The Day Of........

why?

Excitement and Happiness

Into the future

Together With Relatives

Reunite The Past, Sway With The Present and Ready The Future

The Past

GPM

From silent to deaf

Interests and Tries

As I enter.......

Music and Game

hold