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For some personal reason
I won't be publishing blogs in the next few months
My apologies
But as soon as I wanted to do so
There will be a new one
Again
I extend my apologies

"I've seen Saturn thru a telescope..."

---- Sponge Cola ( Saturn )

--marc22fews

Illusive Thoughts

The surrounding's dark
Can't barely see a thing
Even though I can see a pole of light
I do not know how to hold it
Neither look at it

The time came
Every eye was focused one me
I can't make unnecessary movements
I just stared back in the light

Ignoring every facade
I walked around
Every step I take
Pausing for a while to think
If there's no one to make fun of me
I can not allow myself to be conquered by anyone

New light poles are showing their brightness
I don't know which one is a bright one
Nor the dark one
All I know at the moment
Their color
Some are blue
Some are red
Some are yellow
Some are green
The rest is black
But one color withstand against the others
It is only of its kind
A white pole

Mesmerized due to its facade
I try to go nearby
As I step
The poles are starting to disappear
But as I leave their place
They shined again
I can not get their logic for doing such things
But I guessed they are just playing with me

Another white light was spotted
Still
I'm confused
Why is there only two
Unlike the other
Especially the black one's

I try to hold every light poles
At last
They let me hold them
I can now hold every color I like
But another mystery has arise
Why does the black light change it's colour when I hold them?

I stayed for a while
They seemed to like me in a way
I played with them
They gave me more brightness
I stared at every pole
Hoping that these lights can be with me forever

As I interact with each other
The blue lights became darker than itself
The red ones became pink
The yellow is changing into gold
The green is also changing into a gray one
The group of black remained black
So as the two poles of white lights

Now I'm starting to lose my breathe
Asking help to every pole
They can't seem to move
I tried to hold them
Surprisingly
I can hold the light poles like an ordinary pole
I hold every color
Except for the black poles
And two white poles

I was shocked when the thing I feared most
Happened
Every pole I can hold
Was now like just an ordinary light pole
They even changed their facades
The dark blue group has became darker
Some of the dark blue members became black
The pink returned to its original color
The gold maintained its colour
But it became brighter
The gray poles disappeared
The black remained black
The white poles became brighter

For that incident
I already ignored every light poles
I went straight to the white poles
I try to hold them with my bare hands
They let me hold them
Like the others
They are like a real pole
So by their sides
Is where I stayed for awhile

The time continues to flow
So is my life
Now
I'm gasping for air
Very difficult to breath
Can't live for much longer
As for the two poles
I hold them tighter
Symptom that I need their presence
As I tried to close my grip while holding them
The pole at my right started to become brighter than before
I was relieved
I believed that this one won't leave me
So I let go to the pole at my left
And started to hold the pole at my right
It became brighter
I smiled slightly
I trusted the pole

Time pass by
My time is coming near
The pole I'm holding continues to shine even more
But something happened
While I was holding it
It let go of me
Just like the others
It became an ordinary light pole
After a little while
It disappear

Now my life's coming to an end
I lay down on the floor
And look to my right then left
At my left
The white pole was still there
Its brightness was never change since the start
Before I lose my breath
I crawled to hold the white pole that seemed to wait for me
But it never came in time
Before I reached the pole
My body became to stiff that felt like
I have Rigor Mortis
I let myself drown
And be kissed by death
As I stared the white light pole
My eyes are starting to close
I'm still looking at the white pole
It's getting harder and harder to breath
Until my eyes was almost closed
The white pole shined too much
Too much that it cost me blindness
All I can see is a white light
Then my eyes shut
...
When I opened my eyes
I realized I was in a room
An empty room
I was thinking if I'm already gone
Until she called my name
I looked around
But only find myself alone
I shouted if who she is
"It doesn't matter who am I, what's important is that your safe"
She answered
I was confused
What's happening?
Then I walk
Walked walked walked and walked
'Till I suddenly stopped
She spoke again
"Now you are free"
Free from what?
What the hell is this?
Then a feather fell in my head
I get it
Hold it
Take a deep breath
And closed my eyes

I wake up
I was confused
Everyone's looking at me
Sobbing
I realized
I was in a hospital
Then I looked at my hand
The feather is still there

"Don't ever be afraid. Life has ways of keeping you safe"

---- Sponge Cola (In Another Life)

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--marc22fews